What Is Holding You Here? – Magnetic Attraction

Do you ever feel you are reaching the end of your time here?

I feel this way almost every day now. I find myself sitting at times when I should be watching a movie at the cinema or a meal with friends…and all I can think of is how I wish I could just get up and leave…everything.

I must sound as if I’m unhappy with my life. This is not the case at all. I love my life. I’m happy and I’m settled. It is not a lack of loving my life, it is a pull towards… something else.

I can feel an ever-growing lack of affinity towards my general existence.

I yearn to be in a place where life is real; a place where I can look at the faces of those around me and know that they understand me and are the same. I’ve never really had that before.

it is more than that really…much more.

Do you ever hear a piece of angelic choral music and find yourself beginning to cry? There’s a feeling of loss you can’t understand and a yearning for something you can’t put your finger on; a sadness that is always there. After a while you push it back down and swallow it, deciding to simply get on with your day but it never goes away. It is eternally unrequited and you don’t even know how to requite it, even if you could.

I have lived with that pain, that loss for my entire life.

I have transposed it onto men and other desires but ultimately that is like drinking vinegar for a thirst. It does not help. Eventually the thirst comes back tenfold.

This feeling is a pull back towards God. It is LOVE of God…and love, fundamentally, is only attention or attraction if you will.

This world is just a distraction, a way of puling our attention from HIM. The spell works on us because we are attracted to it and therefore we pay it attention.

We remain alive in these bodies because we are magnetised to this place by way of our affinity or attention. Once that attraction or affinity begins to decrease, so too does that invisible chord that holds us firm. Our very bodies begin to weaken and ail and we begin that part of our journey which will see us flying away to pastures elsewhere.

As children, we have no awareness of anything beyond the bodies we are happily playing in. We are fully present within our bodies and have a complete pull towards the physical as we know of nothing else besides that. As we grow up and begin to regain glimpses of our true reality a yearning or pull back begins to emanate from within us. In my case, it was there from the time I was placed into sleep here. I never lost my pull back. I never wanted to be here and putting me to sleep was like placing a large stone around someone in a body of water in order to make them sink. I would not have completed my task any other way.

I keep asking you all…who do you love?

We all have a wave-length. We are attracted to that which vibrates at a similar frequency to ourselves. Look at what you are attracted to and you will gain an idea of where you are.

What do you actually want? Do you even know why you are doing what you are doing? So many of us simply walk blindly on autopilot. We don’t question, we don’t think and we choose to remain in the dark of our own free will….and then we wonder why we are so unhappy.

Is anything you do really worth anything? Is it going to last beyond your lifetime or make any true difference to those around you?

Is it all attention seeking and ego?

Why did you come here?

I came to tell you all the truth. I knew that none of you would believe me… it is not the first time I have come for this reason. It is not the first time you have not believed me. It will not be the last.

I have pointless things in this world to take care of so I must go and pay yet more attention to my make-believe world…

I can’t help but wonder sometimes though.

Why do we do this to ourselves.

Happy make-believe day people.

ME x

Both Of My Books Are Free on Amazon This Weekend

Hey Guys!

This is just a quick reminder that both of my books are free on Amazon today. Just go through the normal check out procedure and it will show a price of 0.00.  

Also, I still have some UK and USA codes left for my audio book if anyone would like to hear my first book instead. Reviews on Amazon for would be highly appreciated too, thanks.

Have a great weekend guys and don’t forget to let me know what you thought!

Love, 

ME x

What Shall We Do With The Audio Book This Time?

Well it’s my final day in my temporary receptionist role. It’s been really quite a pleasant experience for me and I’m a little sad it’s over. It’s quite nice to work with others for a change. I’d forgotten what it felt like to be part of a team, having had to work on my own for so long now.

I enjoy working alone, don’t get me wrong. It has its perks, such as the feeling of being in complete control or knowing that all of your success is down to yourself and no one else. However…there are days when I definitely wish that everything was not down to me, even though my other half is a godsend much of the time. There’s only so much he can do as he works all the hours God sends already. In all honesty he isn’t much into business. He has no aspirations and no ambition. He’s happy in his full time job, where he’s worked for about 15 years now. I’d die of boredom!

I suppose I have my hands in so many pies right now that I am possibly stretching myself a little thin. I have a tendency to simply see an opportunity and jump in without giving any thought as to whether I have the energy or the mental resources to cope with yet more work on top of everything else I am already committed to lol.

Anyway, I am back in the studio this week for my last couple of sessions, to finish the editing part of my second book. I’ve been having some second thoughts regarding the publication of it on Audible as I’m seriously thinking about releasing this one for free as a series of podcasts instead or publishing it through Author Republic or the like.

It seems insane to put in so much energy and expense just to have it priced so high that no one will even read it given the fact that I lack an advertising budget or a publishing company.

Really, when it boils down to it, I never planned to make any money from any of this. I simply wanted to give my story life and help others in the process. I published them on Amazon as I felt it was the best platform for having them found in the world, even without the advertising budget.

I had such a great response to my first audio book, from the people who received a free copy. Now it is stuck on audible priced at about twenty dollars and I am an unknown so it is unlikely to garner much interest without funds for promotion.

I’m actually really looking forward to this last audio book being finished. I really want to start getting down to some serious work on my next book. It’s just sad that it’s going to be a really slow process now as I have so much responsibility in terms of making a living. I am selling costumes both for myself and a local wholesaler on Ebay again as well as working as a temp whenever the opportunity arises right now. Given the amount of time I get to write, it may be a few years before I get it finished now.

I’ve decided not to even begin until I’ve came back from my next cruise in the middle of September. I don’t suppose there’s any rush. I have the rest of my life to complete it.

If anyone has any advice on what they think I should do with my next audiobook I’d be happy to hear it.

Catch you all later on,

Gillian x

The Forever Romance Books – Both Free This Coming Weekend On Amazon

I’ve decided to place both my 1st and 2nd book on promotion this weekend, which means you can download both kindle versions for free on either Saturday or Sunday.

I only get 5 free days every 90 days so I like to spread them out a little for those who miss them on previous dates.

I want to make a small request of you all today. I am just a struggling little author with no large publishing house behind me and no money for publicity. I desperately need help in terms of reviews on both of my books and would be thrilled if anyone was in a position to either give me a review on Amazon or on their blogs, if they felt so moved…

If anyone would like to review either but lacks time and would be happy to create something from the audio copy just drop me a line and I will happily forward you a free copy of either or both.

Don’t forget to grab them while they’re free this weekend.

Thanks for any help offered guys.

Love,

ME x

Living in the real world…

Hi Guys,

I’m finally back from my holidays and I would love to say the weather was great but sadly it was kind of a wet affair!

I’m a little busy right now as I’m filling in for a receptionist for a couple of weeks at a local firm. I’ll be here until next weekend so I probably won’t get a great deal of time to blog sadly…

It’s really frustrating that I have a ‘real’ life to lead and that it is the most ‘unreal’ part of my existence. It’s also ironic that it keeps me from doing what is truly ‘real’ in my life… However, my body needs to eat and pay bills, so work I shall 🙂

I’ve decided to write a third book at some point soon, when time permits about the actual communication method I used to connect with the universe once again, from the time I hit 21 years of age. I’ve realised recently, in the light of some of the correspondence I’ve been receiving, that this is probably the best way I can put my life experiences to good use. It is difficult for people to truly understand the concept of a one-to-one communication with God /the universe / whatever you wish to call it. I thought it may be helpful to describe exactly what I did and the pitfalls that can occur along the way, as many others have done before me.

In some respects, it is the work I have been leading up to for the entire year. The only reason I released my story first was because it was in fact already written and it gave me a gentle introduction into the world of being an author as well as all that entails. I now know how to put a book together, publish it expeditiously and create a matching audio book. I’ve even trained my tech guy in the process lol.

My entire ethos has never been to show people the way and have them follow me. I have always known that the only way to truly awaken is from the seeking and searching of the individual who is walking a path that is truly unique to themselves. I can’t really do much other than inspire that process by sharing what I’ve done personally. No one can be handed the truth on a silver platter. It just doesn’t work that way.

So, I’m away to answer some more phones before I get replaced with a different temp lol. It’s going to be a bit hit and miss for the next month or so as I’m away for a couple of coming weekends to enjoy what’s left of summer before I head for my cruise to Norway on 9th September.

I promise not to disappear completely though 🙂

Have a great weekend people.

Speak to you all soon,

ME x

Lets Get A Little Trippy Tonight

It always strikes me as strange, how often I look around me at all the different so-called ‘spiritual’ thoughts out there in the world and feel as if the entire planet is insane!

I know this must sound a little rich coming from me, given the stuff I come out with. However, for me, my reality and philosophy is really simple, logical and obvious. I guess the truth is always obvious once you can see it lol.

Early on in my path I was thought to think things through. It was something that was stressed over and over again, that the truth was always pretty obvious if you simply thought about it. Never let it be said that the universe does not have a sense of humour! Quite often, you can see the fun being had with us on a regular basis lol.

The truth is all around us but we don’t actually hear it, don’t think about it or assimilate it.

We are ONE…

What else can this mean but…there is only ONE of us… and that ONE is incarnated into every living being here.

I hear you saying ‘Oh yes, but just because we are all the same universal spirit, that does not mean that you are ME!’

Really…? What else does ONE mean???

This is just a daft example of what I mean.

In the bible, we are told that ‘GOD is everywhere and IN ALL THINGS!’

Somehow people hear this and think it means everywhere… except me…

Bloody hell. People can be so dense… so daft.

OK…so we are all ONE (yes, the same one) and if God is everywhere then that must mean that WE are it…wouldn’t you say?

See what I mean…really simple when you stop and think about it.

OK…so In the beginning was GOD (yes that ONE we mentioned before that we all are)…and before God ..was God… umm…what?

So logically speaking…God was Here since before the beginning…and the only way he could have been…is if he is always here…and is simply going around and around in circles…like the snake that eats its own tail.

God…is all of us (He’s keeping it secret from himself so he can experience these lives) and when he finally wakes himself up… he will repeat again from step A…ad infinitum.

Why??? I have no idea… you tell me as your guess is as good as mine. It’s fun I guess!

There… now we are all enlightened lol.

You don’t believe me yet do you. It’s a bit too much…a bit too big to believe.

Don’t worry, you will know it’s true soon enough.

Nite nite

ME x