Today I want to tackle a really difficult subject, but I have a feeling that it’s a subject many of us have already had to deal with… Multiple personality disorder…Or as I call it a fragmented self.
Many of us walk around thinking there is something wrong with us or our significant others because they they/we have more than one personality / self on the inside. This whole state of mind is something which I believe to be closely associated with our spiritual development and progression.
Once we begin to develop on a spiritual level, we become aware of our various parts, or facets. In society, this state of being is seen as being something which needs to be treated, an aberration in terms of human consciousness when the truth is actually the other way around. Having awareness of your many facets of self simply means you are closer to the end of your journey than most others.
When I was a child, I was put to sleep, just as all of you were. I had been on a very long spiritual trip for many months which had just ended, though my body remained on the bed for only moments while I did so. I think it may well have been because of this, that throughout what took place afterwards, I was still semi-conscious and therefore able to remember it. I am speaking of the process by which we are placed into a state of sleep within these bodies.
I can see my higher aspect (who is actually male – strange I know but he always has been male though mainly I incarnate into female form).
He is creating a circle of mirrored reflections around himself and shattering his idea of his own being by placing the various aspects within the mirrors… then he begins to spin as he continues to stare at them all, until he actually forgets his whole self, but rather sees all of the shattered fragments as individual aspects in their own right.
I know this all sounds a little out there (when am I ever not lol)… but this is what I remember him doing. In doing so, after a fashion, the idea of self is fragmented into various facets, all of which are a different aspect of the whole. The following morning I awoke without my spiritual awareness or memories and I never saw or remembered him again from that night, until I was older and on my spiritual path.
It can be really hard to love someone who is fragmented. Take me for instance, I’m impossible and I know it lol…First and foremost, there is Gillian… and she is pretty well rounded, mature, loving and motherly. I have a little girl self and she is always really easily hurt, cries at movies, wants to simply play and have fun endlessly, is incessantly loving and loves to over indulge. I have the other part I call Father who basically is the one my little girl cries to most of the time. He is the teacher, the one who is God in here. I have another female aspect I call Lucy who is pretty easily pissed off and can be downright evil to those who cross her, she really has quite a temper when driving lol. There is also my husband… he never actually occupies my body as my own facets to, but he is definitely an influential factor… He too has many aspects and I can perceive all of them.
On top of his main character who, like Gillian seems to have a feeling of responsibility to our world, he is fatherly, mature and wise (ish). He has a child self as I do. He also has a self whom he perceives to be bad and unfeeling. He is also pretty pissed off much of the time and I think this is his version of Lucy. He is kind of detached and does what he feels is best regardless of what his child self wishes or wants. He is intense and seriously confident… I normally only see him when my twin is pissed off and occasionally he takes great pleasure in telling me how much he isn’t into me lol. I just laugh at him now and generally try to cheer him up instead of reacting. Like me he has a facet he calls the old man, though I’m pretty sure he means the one I call Father since I’ve never perceived anyone else in here.
People like us can change characters like the wind…and apart from being a part of the natural process of awakening, it is also a means of survival as well as it provides us with a greater ability to perform our roles here. The ability to adapt to others and change according to who is in front of you, is a huge boon in this task.
The problem arises for the people around us as they are used to seeing others as having a singular identity and see our existence as being wrong. Generally, they think it should be drugged into oblivion. I have existed happily and developed to a far greater extent over the last 22 years as a result of this awareness. I know how damaging the drugs they give people like me can be as I’ve seen plenty of evidence to suggest that it is purely harmful and should be avoided other than in situations where self harm or harm to others, is an issue.
Since I discovered this whole concept of the Twin recently it has sat so nicely alongside my own observations of all of this. I’m pretty sure that both of us are part of the same multifaceted or fragmented being who is simply occupying two bodies, which again, fits so perfectly with the whole Twin Flame theory.
The last time I saw my twin he was being medicated for this so-called disorder and like me, he had told the truth, that he was able to perceive voices. Unlike me he was not protected and was shoved on drugs of the worst sort, which prevented him from being able to perceive all of his aspects at once. Instead he shifts from one to the other without any awareness that he has done so. His aspects do not retain their memory from one aspect to the other. This is all the fault of the drugs and until he is removed from them and allowed to find himself, this will remain the case.
In this way, he has had his true spiritual development stunted for this entire time since we met. Instead of embracing what we have, he was too afraid to confront it, as he has been told for his entire life that there was something wrong with him. This was a big part of the reason why he stays away from me as every time we come into contact with each other we begin the process of awakening. We naturally heighten each other’s energy and accelerate the process. It is scary if you don’t know what is going on.
Last time that I saw him he was in a long term relationship with a woman who wished nothing more than to drug him into a singular slumbering body who would be normal, like everyone else was.
This is the problem we have in society.
We are not educated enough to understand that in order to reawaken to who we truly are, we must first go through a process whereby we begin to see all of our various facets…once we are able to see and be conscious of them all, be all of them at will, love all of ourselves we can eventually reach a place which will allow us to become ONE again… and re-emerge from our sleeping state.
I guess as twin flames, you need to be prepared for the fact that there will be more than one aspect in your head if you are able to perceive your twin internally, so what’s a few more aspects going to harm lol.
It’s time we begin to realise that we are so completely unaware of our true conscious make up. Who is to say what is normal since really science has barely scratched the surface of this stuff.
Just keep your minds open and love whoever you are – love whoever they are. Who wants normal anyway – right? Normal is boring lol.
Have a great day people,