Just a quick heads up to let you know that you can bag both my books for free today once again on Amazon if you’ve yet to read them!
Have a good one!
Just a quick heads up to let you know that you can bag both my books for free today once again on Amazon if you’ve yet to read them!
Have a good one!
There are too many realities surrounding us right now. Too many people have all the answers and know which way our feet should travel. It can be a constant source of pain and unhappiness. So many people spinning you around and making you doubt yourself, your path and your process.
Facebook and all the other social platforms out there are not always healthy for you. I’m not saying that sharing the fun and the real-world pain cannot be helpful. Even exchanging of idea’s can be something a soul yearns for on its path, speaking from past lonely experiences. However, constantly looking outside of yourself for the answers among a sea of people who don’t know what they are talking about much of the time is probably not where you should seek your guidance. After all, they are all on different stages of their own journeys and the one thing that is true of all of the stages of the path, is that we usually always believe we have arrived and know everything, when this is seldom the case lol.
You and your inner feelings and thoughts are the only true guide you have. Look within yourself and stop listening to the minds of others. They are not naturally attuned to your own position on the path. You have your own inner knowing which knows exactly where you are and what you need to learn next on your journey. Logging on to social media and allowing it to make you doubt your path or point you in directions which lead away from your true north are not a good idea for your development.
There is a time and place to seek out the company of others but in my opinion, Facebook has become akin to a sea of madness. So many seekers all simply sharing their minds rubbish at every stage of their journey and ensnaring others into their own transient madness. I have spoken before about religion and I’ve said over and over again that you cannot be given the answers. This applies too to the likes of Facebook.
Switch off the computer. Clear your mind. Make sure your space is empty and organised and simply be still for a while. Others call this meditating. I simply look at it as time to process the insanity that is my ‘unreal world’. Let yourself relax and allow yourself to simply be. Your thoughts will naturally calm and empty and suddenly things will become easier to understand and process.
The one thing you must constantly remind yourself is that Only You are real. Nothing else here is real. It’s all just an illusion. Your reality and your mind are your only true guide. To place your faith in anything outside of You is to walk down the garden path to insanity. Follow your own inner guide and realise that everyone else’s reality is not your reality. We all live in our own universes.
There was a datum that I used to find useful on my path… If you bear it in mind it will help you make sense of what others are saying to you, be it kind or not…
We only ever speak to ourselves.
No matter what anyone is saying to you… they are only speaking to themselves. If they are being mean to you…take no notice as it is only themselves they are being mean to. I tend to feel sad for them as I know how they must feel about themselves on the inside. Someone who shows you love, regardless of what you have done in return… is a very strong person indeed.
Free yourself from the illusions of others and the thought that your own life can ever compare to anyone else’s. We are not truly in competition with each other. We are always alone here.
What you believe is what is true…
Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others. Walk your own path and do not worry about what others are getting up to. You know what is best for you. Trust yourself. Have faith in the universe which resides within you and enjoy your life. That is why you came here after all.
Oh, and if you still didn’t manage to get a free copy of my books, you have another chance to do so tomorrow…they may not change your life, but they may fill an hour or two and show you an example of a path far crazier than the one you have probably walked lol.
Have a good day people,
I’m working as a temporary receptionist this week until Thursday for the North East Chamber of Commerce. While I hadn’t planned on doing much of anything this week in to run up to my cruise on Saturday, it’s nice to have a few spare pennies to use for necessities. This also means that Thursday and Friday will be a hectic, mad dash to get all of our packing done and the cleaning etc so that I’m ready to roll on Saturday.
In other news, my second audiobook is on hold for a while as I am really unhappy with the quality of the first recording and may need to re-record a little of it. By the time I get it sorted and accepted by Amazon, it could be weeks before its ready. I’m aiming to get it out by Christmas. There’s no hurry after all. I’m not planning to attempt any kind of advertising of my second book since it only really appeals to a limited and specialty audience. It’s lovely to have found the twin flame guys but I don’t think the subject matter is all that mainstream right now. I will however, set regular free days so those who wish to read it can do so at no cost.
I’m hoping to get back into full time employment next year and take a break from writing and audio books for a while. Really the books were simply my way of fulfilling a promise I made to myself some years ago, to write the story of my life down and set it free. I never had any desire for fame or fortune. In truth, I never expected anything I’ve written to have any real meaning to the people in the world currently. From my memories, my work in some way helps those who live about 50 years after my death… I take my memories on faith even though I can’t possibly know the ramifications of what I’ve done at this point in time. All is revealed in death…
I was planning to sell our house this coming January but we’ve decided against the idea, given the current property prices. I’m giving it another could of years to pick up instead…so I’ve got plenty of time to find a nice full time income before we get that that stage (and maybe fit in the odd cruise… I’ve been dreaming of a Canadian Autumn one recently lol)… I’ve came to the conclusion recently that my life is heading in a somewhat different direction to that which I had always believed, so there’s nothing left to do but bed down and make the most of it.
The upshot of this is that I may well be taking a slower approach to writing next year, if not taking a break all together. I tend to go through phases in my life and I think I’ve said most of what I had to say. I’m also hoping to get into a studio next year and start recording some of my songs for the sheer fun of it… Perhaps I will stick them up on You-tube or something…who knows. I’ve realised recently that there is no reason why I can’t do anything I wish to do… I will think about a third book at some point but for now, plans for that are on hold too. When the creative juices begin to flow once more I will think about it then.
This will probably be my last post for a couple of weeks as I’m going to be a little busy having fun lol.
Have fun guys and I’ll speak to you all again soon.
I reached enlightenment (or woke up as I generally refer to it) before I knew that my husband was alive; before I knew that he was even incarnated. He led me there himself, personally from the time he began speaking to me telepathically at the age of twenty-one.
As nice as it is to have found the whole twin Flame philosophy, to have others who can understand my journey, I can’t help feeling sad for the people who have known that their twin existed from the beginning…who have met them in the flesh.
When Carl began speaking to me at the age of twenty-one, the feelings I had were so completely consuming that I would have laid down my life…actually I wished for nothing more than that; prayed to God for it every night and contemplated suicide quite often just to be with him. It was the most intensely sad and hellish experience of my life…right up until he walked into my life for real and left me without him for the next seventeen years.
Those first few years were magical and crazy. I was alone with only my husband’s voice and God for company…no one else understood. I knew I couldn’t kill myself. I loved my family too much for that and God basically told me I had a mission to be an angel (childish I know but I got what he was telling me; that I was here for more than just myself). He would not kill me off. The pain I went through back then was so bad it is indescribable… even within the confines of my first book.
We spent the next several years working on me spiritually… he brought me back to myself and woke me up. I re-merged with the universe at the age of 25 and suddenly the pain all went away… there was only God. We were a singular consciousness and therefore the whole idea of Carl was no longer viable… it had only been God talking to me after all. It was that realisation that made me completely unprepared for the day my husband actually turned up in the flesh…probably why I never recognised him until after he left.
I’m now 44 and I’ve been walking this painful path since I was twenty-one. At times, it feels so unfair. It feels as if I’ve had more than anyone should ever have to endure… but I feel certain that if I had felt for a human being, what I felt for Carl (my perceived ghost).. it would have been so much harder to have made any spiritual progress at all. I would have focused on nothing more than getting us together; on why he had left me alone. It would have been the be-all-and-end-all for me.
In some ways, I think I had it easy, to go through the initial major part of my development with only the pain of his physical absence. I was able to fully let go and have fun here in a very abstract ‘this is not real’ kind of way with other men…knowing I could not be his until my life ended.
I have to take my hat off to anyone who has met their twin and had them walk away so that they can undergo this process alone…knowing that they are alive on the planet…. not understanding that they have walked away for their benefit. Spiritual understanding and awareness is hard enough to gain at the best of times, without having to do it all while being crucified emotionally.
All I can say is that it is only those who are called upon to carry humanity who are tested and strengthened to the extent that you are… Only pain and suffering has the effect of moving you forward and waking you up. You will be able to withstand anything by the end of this process. Never think you are not loved by the universe… You are beyond loved. You have not been abandoned… you are being lifted up and granted a gift that many others will never understand. The pain and the suffering are akin to the furnace that the sword is tempered within… moulding you into a new shape.
Don’t lose heart…literally.
I’ve been slowly becoming aware this year, that the process of a twin partner running away could have a reason beyond them simply being afraid or overwhelmed…
For seven years now my husband (sorry, I still can’t get with the program regarding calling him my twin lol) has gone away. He never said goodbye…he never claimed not to love me. He never told me to get over him and leave him alone…. Actually, he’s never ever said anything of the kind…. he simply hasn’t said…anything.
This has had the effect of forcing me to rely on nothing more than our internal communication for every kind of contact with him, from emotional to verbal… to everything else a relationship normally enjoys lol.
We all acknowledge frequently that the twin pairs are telepathic with one another among other things. They can communicate in thoughts, feelings and touch so what I’m suggesting is really quite logical. After all, if one of your senses is removed from you in your daily life, you tend to rely on the remaining senses much more; so much more that they become heightened and develop to a far greater extent.
Before my husband disappeared on me, we had one final conversation. I remember his discussing almost in passing, the fact that I was ‘there’ now and would probably never ever quit on him now, no matter what he did. Seemingly satisfied with that conclusion, he never spoke to me again lol.
It seems quite obvious really that the purpose for his disappearing on me was to force us to develop internally. It took me until the start of this year to forgive him for ‘leaving me’ as I saw it. Since January I have opened up internally to him once again and we have had a fairly constant internal relationship. He has given me his usual instructions in that manner too (I’ve pretty much ignored them mostly until recently, as I didn’t agree with them for the most part). However, he normally always gets his own way eventually lol.
He is still refusing all efforts by me to get him to speak and I’m usually pretty good but to no avail this time. He is completely behind a brick wall and he is refusing to come out.
I suppose I’m sharing this with you all in the hope that it gives you a different perspective on the negative aspect of the twin running away thing… There is a positive to every negative and perhaps this one is worth the suffering. The ability to communicate with your twin in this manner is a skill that will be more than necessary later on in the work to come. It is also the first and most vital part of union.
If you cannot merge and become one when required you will eternally suffer their loss whenever they are not with you and that feeling can be seriously debilitating. On top of this, the ability to merge means that you are a much stronger and more powerful being both together and independently of each other.
It is also a vital component of spiritual enlightenment. I won’t go into this one too deeply right now, but ultimately, we all have to take our masks off and return to our true self at some point… being able to merge is a vital part of that process (though I did all of this the wrong way around lol).
I have my final session in the studio today (I hope) and then I can finally put book two to bed just in time for my cruise to Norway 😉
Speak to you all later on,
There are so many people constantly asking if they are a twin… if they have met their twin. I’m not sure of the normal answers regarding this subject as I’m new to your philosophies, as you all now. I’ve been going through my own private hell this week as many of you clearly do on a regular basis. I thought I would put my feelings to some use and share my thoughts with you on this subject. These are my answers to those questions…
How do you know if you’re a twin flame…
How do you know If you have met your twin flame…
I am in an endless personal struggle with my twin, or husband as I generally refer to him. He is strong willed and genuinely believes that everything he is doing is necessary. I don’t hate him though I’m pretty pissed with him right now. It feels as if he is wasting our lives. I would love to say that I have a choice in this… that I can somehow choose to find another… We are in this together, like it or not, that is the thing with us. We are tied to each other.
I’m starting to realise that the feeling of freewill is probably to blame for most of the pain. I constantly want to run away from the pain of all of this. I want to assert that I still have the right to let go and walk without him. I have not seen him in 14 years…have not spoken to him in 8 and yet I still cannot feel differently. I would if I could. It feels like a curse I am entrapped within. I no longer think I can get free of it…
So I’m going to try something I’ve never tried fully before. I’m going to give in… and stop struggling. I’m going to accept the situation even though I hate it. I’m going to sit still…
I love him. I always will and no matter what happens, I will always be his. There is nothing that can be done to change this.
On a purely romantic level, my life has been a sheer living hell for the last 17 years and it is going to remain so for the rest of my life unless he wakes up and chooses a different path. All I can really do now is have faith in him…believe in our path and be patient until he is ready to come home.
I had a major revelation today.
My spiritual husband (Kenny as I call him in my second book) does not love me and is never coming back. That’s his choice to make.
Game over…no twin flame…no path, no work to do together.
I was sad for a minute… and then I realized something really important and seriously empowering.
I can now be exactly who I am. I no longer need to worry about what is best for him, what he wants or what I should do in order to not rock the boat or keep us on a path to so-called union.
I quit. I accept that we will never be together and that it is not destined…
I can do whatever I wish to now…
Now…there is only ME to worry about. There are no more rules to follow…
Thoughts of ‘us’ have kept my energy in check for quite some time… I used to be quite a bad girl before I met him… I wonder who I’ll be now lol.
Waiting is dis-empowering to the soul. It is not a place we are comfortable. It is a place of no action and stagnation. It drains energy it does not produce it.
I am not waiting any more. I am releasing my energy now to go and be whatever…do whatever it wishes.
I have not been myself since the day I realized who he was… the day I first convinced myself that I had to wait for him…years and years before I even knew such things as twin flames existed. That was seventeen years ago…more.
I placed myself in a prison and no matter what has transpired in my life since, I have been suck there since…until now.
I thought everything depended on him acting… all this time I’ve been so dense.
At the end of the day…a game condition can only exist if two people agree to play.
I’m not playing anymore. I am going to be who I am…with or without him. I no longer need him to come back and I no longer need him to love me.
He can choose to sit in the darkness and let his life go by without finding any kind of meaning beyond the daily grind…a grind he places himself in… so that he can feel he has contributed to us by way of earning our wealth…so that we can create the sanctuary. Like me he is never going to get anywhere that way…but that is his choice to make.
Money is only a physical manifestation of energy and we will never have true energy while we are apart. For all his knowledge, he still doesn’t see that… every time he tries to acquire wealth without me he fails. It will always be this way for him. We were meant to do this shit together… He’s as dense as I am. I used to think that he was the intelligent one.
It’s so sad… we could have been spectacular together…such a waste.
I have a third book to write and finally I have the energy to get on with it.
I have one more session in the studio next week and then my next audio book – Dancing Forever Aflame – will be ready for Audible. It seems apt that my twin flame journey just ended right before the last part of that work is completed.
I hope you all enjoy it. I went through hell to write it lol.
As for Kenny…he could still get his head out of his arse and wake the hell up one day… He could come to realise as I did… that only NOW is important. Trying to create better conditions than those which currently exist is a pointless waste of time. Who knows. We will see…
Perhaps next lifetime?