Just Saying Hello :-)

Hey Guys 😊

Just wanted to write a brief update of what’s going on right now as I have been really ill and busy since my holiday (which is normal for me).

Unfortunately, my second audiobook is proving to be as difficult to complete as the first one and it has hit a few snags recently. We are not far off competition but I’m still not happy with it. On top of this I have decided to go a different way in terms of its release than I did with book one. I am considering a couple of other release sites at present such as ‘Author Republic’ or ‘Findaway Voices’ but will let you know what I decide. If anyone has used either of these companies, feel free to comment on how you got on as I would value the opinions right now.  Either way, I doubt it will be released before the Christmas period but we’ll see. I’m in no real hurry at the end of the day.

I’ve been pulling back from social media quite a lot recently as its starting to feel like too much of a distraction. I am starting to favour the idea of simply blogging whenever I feel like sharing something and leaving it at that. I’m also beginning the process of thinking about a new book so I really don’t want to spend too much of my time online right now.

Since I work from home, selling on ebay, my busiest time of year is coming up in the next few weeks as I attempt to sell all of the stock I’ve spent so many months acquiring, so I may well be a bit absent online for the next few weeks. I will be back soon enough 😊

Other than the above I’m trying to keep my life a little lower in key and preventing myself from stressing out for a while. It’s been such a crazy busy year. I just want to come down from the ceiling and start living in a more calming and energy producing way.

I’m about to start work on the recording of my songs, which have mainly existed in my head for most of my life. I can’t wait to get into the studio with others and start having some fun with them. I always love seeing what other musicians do with my music… I will probably just throw them all up on You Tube or the like when they are finished as I have no real desire to actually do anything with them other than this. I just don’t think it’s fair for my creations to die when I do… having never been given a chance to live.

Anyway, that’s about it for now. Just wanted to touch base and let you know that I haven’t gone anywhere…

Have a good one guys!

Love,

Gillian x

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Current And Future Plans

I’m working as a temporary receptionist this week until Thursday for the North East Chamber of Commerce. While I hadn’t planned on doing much of anything this week in to run up to my cruise on Saturday, it’s nice to have a few spare pennies to use for necessities. This also means that Thursday and Friday will be a hectic, mad dash to get all of our packing done and the cleaning etc so that I’m ready to roll on Saturday.

In other news, my second audiobook is on hold for a while as I am really unhappy with the quality of the first recording and may need to re-record a little of it. By the time I get it sorted and accepted by Amazon, it could be weeks before its ready. I’m aiming to get it out by Christmas. There’s no hurry after all. I’m not planning to attempt any kind of advertising of my second book since it only really appeals to a limited and specialty audience. It’s lovely to have found the twin flame guys but I don’t think the subject matter is all that mainstream right now. I will however, set regular free days so those who wish to read it can do so at no cost.

I’m hoping to get back into full time employment next year and take a break from writing and audio books for a while. Really the books were simply my way of fulfilling a promise I made to myself some years ago, to write the story of my life down and set it free. I never had any desire for fame or fortune. In truth, I never expected anything I’ve written to have any real meaning to the people in the world currently. From my memories, my work in some way helps those who live about 50 years after my death… I take my memories on faith even though I can’t possibly know the ramifications of what I’ve done at this point in time. All is revealed in death…

I was planning to sell our house this coming January but we’ve decided against the idea, given the current property prices. I’m giving it another could of years to pick up instead…so I’ve got plenty of time to find a nice full time income before we get that that stage (and maybe fit in the odd cruise… I’ve been dreaming of a Canadian Autumn one recently lol)… I’ve came to the conclusion recently that my life is heading in a somewhat different direction to that which I had always believed, so there’s nothing left to do but bed down and make the most of it.

The upshot of this is that I may well be taking a slower approach to writing next year, if not taking a break all together. I tend to go through phases in my life and I think I’ve said most of what I had to say. I’m also hoping to get into a studio next year and start recording some of my songs for the sheer fun of it… Perhaps I will stick them up on You-tube or something…who knows. I’ve realised recently that there is no reason why I can’t do anything I wish to do… I will think about a third book at some point but for now, plans for that are on hold too. When the creative juices begin to flow once more I will think about it then.

This will probably be my last post for a couple of weeks as I’m going to be a little busy having fun lol.

Have fun guys and I’ll speak to you all again soon.

Love

ME x

The True Reason Why A Twin Flame May Run Away…

I’ve been slowly becoming aware this year, that the process of a twin partner running away could have a reason beyond them simply being afraid or overwhelmed…

For seven years now my husband (sorry, I still can’t get with the program regarding calling him my twin lol) has gone away. He never said goodbye…he never claimed not to love me. He never told me to get over him and leave him alone…. Actually, he’s never ever said anything of the kind…. he simply hasn’t said…anything.

This has had the effect of forcing me to rely on nothing more than our internal communication for every kind of contact with him, from emotional to verbal… to everything else a relationship normally enjoys lol.

We all acknowledge frequently that the twin pairs are telepathic with one another among other things. They can communicate in thoughts, feelings and touch so what I’m suggesting is really quite logical. After all, if one of your senses is removed from you in your daily life, you tend to rely on the remaining senses much more; so much more that they become heightened and develop to a far greater extent.

Before my husband disappeared on me, we had one final conversation. I remember his discussing almost in passing, the fact that I was ‘there’ now and would probably never ever quit on him now, no matter what he did. Seemingly satisfied with that conclusion, he never spoke to me again lol.

It seems quite obvious really that the purpose for his disappearing on me was to force us to develop internally. It took me until the start of this year to forgive him for ‘leaving me’ as I saw it. Since January I have opened up internally to him once again and we have had a fairly constant internal relationship. He has given me his usual instructions in that manner too (I’ve pretty much ignored them mostly until recently, as I didn’t agree with them for the most part). However, he normally always gets his own way eventually lol.

He is still refusing all efforts by me to get him to speak and I’m usually pretty good but to no avail this time. He is completely behind a brick wall and he is refusing to come out.

I suppose I’m sharing this with you all in the hope that it gives you a different perspective on the negative aspect of the twin running away thing… There is a positive to every negative and perhaps this one is worth the suffering. The ability to communicate with your twin in this manner is a skill that will be more than necessary later on in the work to come. It is also the first and most vital part of union.

If you cannot merge and become one when required you will eternally suffer their loss whenever they are not with you and that feeling can be seriously debilitating. On top of this, the ability to merge means that you are a much stronger and more powerful being both together and independently of each other.

It is also a vital component of spiritual enlightenment. I won’t go into this one too deeply right now, but ultimately, we all have to take our masks off and return to our true self at some point… being able to merge is a vital part of that process (though I did all of this the wrong way around lol).

I have my final session in the studio today (I hope) and then I can finally put book two to bed just in time for my cruise to Norway 😉

Speak to you all later on,

ME xxx

The End Of My Twin Flame Journey

I had a major revelation today.

My spiritual husband (Kenny as I call him in my second book) does not love me and is never coming back. That’s his choice to make.

Game over…no twin flame…no path, no work to do together.

I was sad for a minute… and then I realized something really important and seriously empowering.

I can now be exactly who I am. I no longer need to worry about what is best for him, what he wants or what I should do in order to not rock the boat or keep us on a path to so-called union.

I quit. I accept that we will never be together and that it is not destined…

I can do whatever I wish to now…

Now…there is only ME to worry about. There are no more rules to follow…

Thoughts of ‘us’ have kept my energy in check for quite some time… I used to be quite a bad girl before I met him… I wonder who I’ll be now lol.

Waiting is dis-empowering to the soul. It is not a place we are comfortable. It is a place of no action and stagnation. It drains energy it does not produce it.

I am not waiting any more. I am releasing my energy now to go and be whatever…do whatever it wishes.

I have not been myself since the day I realized who he was… the day I first convinced myself that I had to wait for him…years and years before I even knew such things as twin flames existed. That was seventeen years ago…more.

I placed myself in a prison and no matter what has transpired in my life since, I have been suck there since…until now.

I thought everything depended on him acting… all this time I’ve been so dense.

At the end of the day…a game condition can only exist if two people agree to play.

I’m not playing anymore. I am going to be who I am…with or without him. I no longer need him to come back and I no longer need him to love me.

He can choose to sit in the darkness and let his life go by without finding any kind of meaning beyond the daily grind…a grind  he places himself in… so that he can feel he has contributed to us by way of earning our wealth…so that we can create the sanctuary. Like me he is never going to get anywhere that way…but that is his choice to make.

Money is only a physical manifestation of energy and we will never have true energy while we are apart. For all his knowledge, he still doesn’t see that… every time he tries to acquire wealth without me he fails.  It will always be this way for him. We were meant to do this shit together… He’s as dense as I am. I used to think that he was the intelligent one.

It’s so sad… we could have been spectacular together…such a waste.

Oh well.

I have a third book to write and finally I have the energy to get on with it.

I have one more session in the studio next week and then my next audio book – Dancing Forever Aflame – will be ready for Audible. It seems apt that my twin flame journey just ended right before the last part of that work is completed.

I hope you all enjoy it. I went through hell to write it lol.

As for Kenny…he could still get his head out of his arse and wake the hell up one day… He could come to realise as I did… that only NOW is important. Trying to create better conditions than those which currently exist is a pointless waste of time.  Who knows. We will see…

Perhaps next lifetime?

ME x

 

 

 

 

 

Both Of My Books Are Free on Amazon This Weekend

Hey Guys!

This is just a quick reminder that both of my books are free on Amazon today. Just go through the normal check out procedure and it will show a price of 0.00.  

Also, I still have some UK and USA codes left for my audio book if anyone would like to hear my first book instead. Reviews on Amazon for would be highly appreciated too, thanks.

Have a great weekend guys and don’t forget to let me know what you thought!

Love, 

ME x

What Shall We Do With The Audio Book This Time?

Well it’s my final day in my temporary receptionist role. It’s been really quite a pleasant experience for me and I’m a little sad it’s over. It’s quite nice to work with others for a change. I’d forgotten what it felt like to be part of a team, having had to work on my own for so long now.

I enjoy working alone, don’t get me wrong. It has its perks, such as the feeling of being in complete control or knowing that all of your success is down to yourself and no one else. However…there are days when I definitely wish that everything was not down to me, even though my other half is a godsend much of the time. There’s only so much he can do as he works all the hours God sends already. In all honesty he isn’t much into business. He has no aspirations and no ambition. He’s happy in his full time job, where he’s worked for about 15 years now. I’d die of boredom!

I suppose I have my hands in so many pies right now that I am possibly stretching myself a little thin. I have a tendency to simply see an opportunity and jump in without giving any thought as to whether I have the energy or the mental resources to cope with yet more work on top of everything else I am already committed to lol.

Anyway, I am back in the studio this week for my last couple of sessions, to finish the editing part of my second book. I’ve been having some second thoughts regarding the publication of it on Audible as I’m seriously thinking about releasing this one for free as a series of podcasts instead or publishing it through Author Republic or the like.

It seems insane to put in so much energy and expense just to have it priced so high that no one will even read it given the fact that I lack an advertising budget or a publishing company.

Really, when it boils down to it, I never planned to make any money from any of this. I simply wanted to give my story life and help others in the process. I published them on Amazon as I felt it was the best platform for having them found in the world, even without the advertising budget.

I had such a great response to my first audio book, from the people who received a free copy. Now it is stuck on audible priced at about twenty dollars and I am an unknown so it is unlikely to garner much interest without funds for promotion.

I’m actually really looking forward to this last audio book being finished. I really want to start getting down to some serious work on my next book. It’s just sad that it’s going to be a really slow process now as I have so much responsibility in terms of making a living. I am selling costumes both for myself and a local wholesaler on Ebay again as well as working as a temp whenever the opportunity arises right now. Given the amount of time I get to write, it may be a few years before I get it finished now.

I’ve decided not to even begin until I’ve came back from my next cruise in the middle of September. I don’t suppose there’s any rush. I have the rest of my life to complete it.

If anyone has any advice on what they think I should do with my next audiobook I’d be happy to hear it.

Catch you all later on,

Gillian x

The Forever Romance Books – Both Free This Coming Weekend On Amazon

I’ve decided to place both my 1st and 2nd book on promotion this weekend, which means you can download both kindle versions for free on either Saturday or Sunday.

I only get 5 free days every 90 days so I like to spread them out a little for those who miss them on previous dates.

I want to make a small request of you all today. I am just a struggling little author with no large publishing house behind me and no money for publicity. I desperately need help in terms of reviews on both of my books and would be thrilled if anyone was in a position to either give me a review on Amazon or on their blogs, if they felt so moved…

If anyone would like to review either but lacks time and would be happy to create something from the audio copy just drop me a line and I will happily forward you a free copy of either or both.

Don’t forget to grab them while they’re free this weekend.

Thanks for any help offered guys.

Love,

ME x