Its Time To Believe In Us

My world is the real world.

The outside world is the illusion.

Every day I get up and dress this body and go out to play with the other actors on this stage. I permit myself to live as they do while accepting the reality of this world, as they do.

I’d they knew my true reality (and theirs too as it happens) they would scoff and tell me that I was crazy.

In truth, I am the sane one. I am the one that knows who we are and what we are doing here. I am the one who is living the lie consciously, in order to assist the truth.

I am a loyal servant. I do as I am told even when it goes against my mind and what it believes to be sensible. I must…one day if I fail in this…those same people who scoff today will ask me why I did not do as I was meant to and stand up for reality, so that they could have awakened.

It is difficult to look at others without seeing only the ONE that I serve.

I was in a comedy club recently and I listened to a show that the audience sat and laughed at. The comedian was not funny. I say this with love. He was awake to a level of reality that he feels others do not see. He tried to crack his jokes throughout his rage dump of a show but to me I could feel that inwardly he was crying, sore and frustrated.

We were a small audience, barely a handful of people…

When everyone teemed out to go about the rest of their evening I bumped into him in the hallway as he was leaving.

I walked up to him and threw my arms around him, saying nothing more than ‘I’m so sorry.’ I just hugged him for a while. It is hard to feel what we both feel in this world.

I thought he was so brave for putting his truth out there like that in such a naked fashion.

He told me that he had to try and hammer that reality home in the hopes that it may have some impact on the world. I told him only that he was not the only one who was here for that purpose and that he needed to keep in mind that he was not alone. He seemed to cheer at that and said that it was good to know.

His performance left me feeling very sad and I couldn’t help but do as I did. I’m sure it did not affect the rest of the audience in that way.

Strangely I had won the tickets and should not have even been there. Perhaps I was placed there simply to give him a bit of encouragement, who can say. All I know is it makes me feel better to see that I am not the only one who is fighting against this mire we exist in. We all have a place in the fight…we simply need to figure out where we belong… and be brave enough to take our places there…finally.

More than ever it feels as if we are backsliding and this is what he was talking about. We are falling back on old divisions and ways which break us apart as a race. We must unite if we are to combat this backwards momentum. None of us can win this one alone. We are all on the same side.

We need to try now more than ever to continually enforce the reality that we are ONE. We are one race, one world and each of us matter equally as much as the next. No one is more important.

If we can fix this one datum in our society it will go a long way towards moving us forward spiritually.

The world is kind of a mess right now, but it can all be fixed.

I have faith. I believe in us.

Love you,

ME x

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Finding Your Way In The Darkness

There are too many realities surrounding us right now. Too many people have all the answers and know which way our feet should travel. It can be a constant source of pain and unhappiness. So many people spinning you around and making you doubt yourself, your path and your process.

Facebook and all the other social platforms out there are not always healthy for you. I’m not saying that sharing the fun and the real-world pain cannot be helpful. Even exchanging of idea’s can be something a soul yearns for on its path, speaking from past lonely experiences. However, constantly looking outside of yourself for the answers among a sea of people who don’t know what they are talking about much of the time is probably not where you should seek your guidance. After all, they are all on different stages of their own journeys and the one thing that is true of all of the stages of the path, is that we usually always believe we have arrived and know everything, when this is seldom the case lol.

You and your inner feelings and thoughts are the only true guide you have. Look within yourself and stop listening to the minds of others. They are not naturally attuned to your own position on the path. You have your own inner knowing which knows exactly where you are and what you need to learn next on your journey. Logging on to social media and allowing it to make you doubt your path or point you in directions which lead away from your true north are not a good idea for your development.

There is a time and place to seek out the company of others but in my opinion, Facebook has become akin to a sea of madness. So many seekers all simply sharing their minds rubbish at every stage of their journey and ensnaring others into their own transient madness. I have spoken before about religion and I’ve said over and over again that you cannot be given the answers. This applies too to the likes of Facebook.

Switch off the computer. Clear your mind. Make sure your space is empty and organised and simply be still for a while. Others call this meditating. I simply look at it as time to process the insanity that is my ‘unreal world’. Let yourself relax and allow yourself to simply be. Your thoughts will naturally calm and empty and suddenly things will become easier to understand and process.

The one thing you must constantly remind yourself is that Only You are real. Nothing else here is real. It’s all just an illusion. Your reality and your mind are your only true guide. To place your faith in anything outside of You is to walk down the garden path to insanity. Follow your own inner guide and realise that everyone else’s reality is not your reality. We all live in our own universes.

There was a datum that I used to find useful on my path… If you bear it in mind it will help you make sense of what others are saying to you, be it kind or not…

We only ever speak to ourselves.

No matter what anyone is saying to you… they are only speaking to themselves. If they are being mean to you…take no notice as it is only themselves they are being mean to. I tend to feel sad for them as I know how they must feel about themselves on the inside. Someone who shows you love, regardless of what you have done in return… is a very strong person indeed.

Free yourself from the illusions of others and the thought that your own life can ever compare to anyone else’s. We are not truly in competition with each other. We are always alone here.

What you believe is what is true…

Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others. Walk your own path and do not worry about what others are getting up to. You know what is best for you. Trust yourself. Have faith in the universe which resides within you and enjoy your life. That is why you came here after all.

Have fun…

Oh, and if you still didn’t manage to get a free copy of my books, you have another chance to do so tomorrow…they may not change your life, but they may fill an hour or two and show you an example of a path far crazier than the one you have probably walked lol.

Have a good day people,

Love,

Me x

UNIFICATION – The Only Way To Save Us

We live on a single, solitary planet and yet so many different universes exist here. Some of us live in glistening palaces with servants, experience extravagant travel every day and every conceivable luxury. Some of us live in high rise apartment blocks and work all the hours god sends though we never have a penny to our name. Some of us live on the streets and know only cold and hunger. Some of us live in nice homes and although we will never be wealthy, we are still able to afford the odd luxury trip and sleep in a comfortable, warm bed… Some of us are home makers, some of us are missionaries, some of us are priests, bankers, princes and shop assistants…and all the billions of variations that exist in between…

Each of us has a completely different existence to the next person and no matter how poor we feel we are… there are always millions of people on the planet who experience far worse realities than ourselves every day. There is such a large divide between the richest of our population and the very poorest. There is even a vast divide between the poor and the poorest. It is amazing that so many different kinds of experience exist on one planet but it is also heart breaking and sad that the nicer realities exist at the expense of most of the more terrible realities.

We have created a world where we are expected to clamber over each other to get to the top of the human pile. We are pitted against one another for our very survival. For one of us to succeed, another must fail. It is the human ‘race’ after all.

There is only one way that all of the suffering can end. One way that the world can begin to heal and repair. There is only one way which will see us all survive. I groan inwardly at this point in my post as I know that no one wants to hear this… It is depressing and inconvenient… so my apologies in advance, but it still needs to be said.

Our world is in a free-fall right now. We can no longer fight against each other for survival. Only together, do we have any hope of surviving what is to come in the next twenty years. Trust me, if you think things are bad now… you haven’t seen anything yet.

We must….

UNIFY

I’ve spoken about this before. It is a subject that is never acknowledged.

The only way we survive what is about to happen…is already happening… is if we begin the process of unification

We cannot continue as we are. Our world must shift in attitude and in reality.

We can no longer be a world full of countries with their own agenda’s. We cannot see each other as ‘others’ anymore.

What I am asking requires a huge shift in the consciousness of this planet. It requires sacrifice and compassion and faith.

Let me explain this another way…

If I was to offer you a choice today…. We can save the planet and most of the people on it. We can save our species and our children’s future. All you have to do is be prepared to give up your current reality and exist in one which may see you having slightly less in some ways, than you currently do…

…Less designer clothing (Do you really need them to live anyway?)

…Less – in terms of an abundance of food (how much do you currently waste each week in any case?)

…Less in terms of eating out – food is no longer an item that can be used for fun (it won’t do your waist any harm, will it?)

To mention but a few…but there is also:

…less guilt and sadness as you enjoy a relatively luxury existence while others suffer and die in poverty and strife…

Less stress as you spend all of your life working…

More… family time…

More friends…. more love, more laughter and true interaction with others.

More appreciation of nature and beauty…

More understanding of nature and the universe and ourselves as you have more time to think.

More in terms of quality of life though you may not see how right now.

More time for creativity.

 

We have a vast abundance of financial resources…food resources…material resources.

We have scientists who cannot currently fix problems since their employers are preventing them from doing so as it keeps their current product prices high. We have advanced technology which is being repressed for similar reasons…

Our world is backside-foremost.

Let’s try and spell this out again…

We need to become a singular, unified planet

We need a singular (modestly paid) government whose sole purpose is to utilise our resources in a balanced fair way without any thoughts of capitalism getting in the way. Everything on this planet belongs to every one of its citizen’s. No one person should be able to acquire abundance above the general level of the other people on the planet. No one person is more important than any other person.

Just because we are born on one land mass, does not mean we have the right to claim it as our own to the exclusion of others…nor do any other landmasses have the right to prevent us from living there because we were not born in that place. We own nothing here. Nothing can come with us and nothing is truly ever ours.

Until the term ‘country’ ceases to exist as a meaning of separate entity….and a singular government is placed in charge of our planet with the sole aim of legislating and managing our global resources for the good of all… we are all utterly screwed (putting it bluntly).

A lot of land masses who are too interested in working on behalf of their own populations can never work effectively to tackle the global problems that exist in our world. Why should they? They are not their problems. It is not those people who get them elected to their nice highly paid jobs.

I don’t comment on current affairs usually. I simply sit and fume as I know my opinions have no weight anywhere and no one listens to anything I have to say. I sprout a very inconvenient truth… and I know that even those who may agree with all of this will come up with an abundance of reasons why it could never happen. That is just a convenient reality.

We have the ability to fix most of the problems that exist on our planet if only we could grow up as a race and evolve.

Capitalism has been in control of our realities and our minds for a very long time. It is about to drive us all into extinction… sadly it already is.

The monopoly game is over…will someone please throw the goddam board off the table!

The sad truth is… that no one will even consider this option until it is far too late to change the path we are on. We never learn…we go through this every time. This is not the first lifetime I have given you all this same lecture…and it won’t be the last time that you don’t bother to listen to me.

I know I will be long gone before anyone even thinks this may be a good idea. I usually am…

I just thought that for once I would talk about my views on things going on in the unreal world instead of the real one… (sorry this world is the unreal world to me lol).

Have a good day people… many, many others are paying for it… so you may as well enjoy it.

Love

ME x

Living in the real world…

Hi Guys,

I’m finally back from my holidays and I would love to say the weather was great but sadly it was kind of a wet affair!

I’m a little busy right now as I’m filling in for a receptionist for a couple of weeks at a local firm. I’ll be here until next weekend so I probably won’t get a great deal of time to blog sadly…

It’s really frustrating that I have a ‘real’ life to lead and that it is the most ‘unreal’ part of my existence. It’s also ironic that it keeps me from doing what is truly ‘real’ in my life… However, my body needs to eat and pay bills, so work I shall 🙂

I’ve decided to write a third book at some point soon, when time permits about the actual communication method I used to connect with the universe once again, from the time I hit 21 years of age. I’ve realised recently, in the light of some of the correspondence I’ve been receiving, that this is probably the best way I can put my life experiences to good use. It is difficult for people to truly understand the concept of a one-to-one communication with God /the universe / whatever you wish to call it. I thought it may be helpful to describe exactly what I did and the pitfalls that can occur along the way, as many others have done before me.

In some respects, it is the work I have been leading up to for the entire year. The only reason I released my story first was because it was in fact already written and it gave me a gentle introduction into the world of being an author as well as all that entails. I now know how to put a book together, publish it expeditiously and create a matching audio book. I’ve even trained my tech guy in the process lol.

My entire ethos has never been to show people the way and have them follow me. I have always known that the only way to truly awaken is from the seeking and searching of the individual who is walking a path that is truly unique to themselves. I can’t really do much other than inspire that process by sharing what I’ve done personally. No one can be handed the truth on a silver platter. It just doesn’t work that way.

So, I’m away to answer some more phones before I get replaced with a different temp lol. It’s going to be a bit hit and miss for the next month or so as I’m away for a couple of coming weekends to enjoy what’s left of summer before I head for my cruise to Norway on 9th September.

I promise not to disappear completely though 🙂

Have a great weekend people.

Speak to you all soon,

ME x

Going Beyond Race, Gender & Sexual Equality

I had no intention of blogging again today but something worth noting sprang to mind as I was looking through the news today.

I generally don’t get involved in opinions of social matters. To be frank, I don’t actually care, not enough to get down in the dirt and raise my voice enough to be heard above the din that is social media and the endless sea of ego’s contained therein. I would like to, but it would be disingenuous. My views are just nuanced, which is why I don’t get involved. I get a little annoyed but only because I am a little beyond the current level of argument out there.

For example, the race issue. I don’t get involved one way or another and it isn’t because I don’t believe in race equality, it is for exactly that reason that I don’t get involved. I know you are probably shaking your head right now and saying ‘eh?’ so let me try to explain this a bit better.

I think that we are currently always favoring one race over another in our efforts to favor another race more than we presently do. By trying to be fairer to people who are black, or who are disabled or who are women, we discriminate against everyone who does not fall into those categories. It is a little like a pendulum, always swinging to one extreme or another when where it really needs to be is in the center. It simply never gets there.

While I agree there are large discrepancies in the way in which certain groups of people are currently treated by society, I still feel that for me, I simply see people as people. I don’t see white, black, Asian, Muslim, Christian, Hindu, Men, Women, old, young….

I just see people.

I don’t like political correctness and in my own view of the world, this process has gone a little crazy right now. We have lost our common sense to a large extent.

I yearn for a world where the issues of Black, Gender, Race, belief etc, are never ever mentioned… a world where we have moved into simply seeing ourselves as a single race, no matter which sex, race or gender could be used to define us.

What we are should not be important when it comes to describing ourselves. It should not count in terms of other people’s view of us relating to work or treatment generally.

All that matters in the grand scheme of things, is what we do. That should be the only estimation of our character and the only thing which truly effects others treatment of us in our daily lives.

I know many will be thinking…if only we lived in a perfect world we could hope for this but for now there is still much work to do. I would agree with that sentiment; however, I think we all have our own causes to peruse and there are so many in this world. I have chosen to work to prepare the world for what will come next after this lifetime as that is where my heart and my passion lies. We all need to follow our path and go where we are called. This is mine.

Have a good one guys 😊

Love,

Me x

Eternal Recurrence – or Self Perpetuating Time Loop (As I call it)

I’ve been having a slight reversal of attitude recently regarding my own contribution to spirituality in this world. I’ve spent so much time online recently and along with a wish to spend more time offline and in the real world, I came to the conclusion recently that my thoughts and contribution were not really all that necessary, given how many others clearly seem to know what is going on. I therefore withdrew and began heading back towards a regular existence with a plan to happily cease worrying about it all…unplugging the computer happily.

At the end of the day, it is very hard to be seen. It is very hard to be heard… in the vast ocean of other people’s opinions. Everyone believes they know what is going on… To say I do not feel the same would be a lie, only I don’t really use the work believe anymore.

Recently I have began to think differently to the above thoughts and have become more and more certain that withdrawal is not on the cards for me, no matter what I might want.

I am not actually offering my opinions in actual fact, as I don’t think ‘belief’ or ‘thinking’ have much to offer. Everyone is on an ever developing path and will believe different things at different times as they progress. What you believe today would have been laughed at by your former self some years ago…and so it goes on ad infinitum.

I am offering a glimpse into eternity.  I have awoken and remember my reality from the view point of all the collective memories I have now, memories which were prearranged to re-emerge within my lifetime. I can only look at them with my current mind and use them to put the pieces together. There are some conclusions which are undeniable and are not a result of my subjective thinking. They are simply a remembered fact.

Someone asked me recently how you know when memories are really your own memories and not just an implant or imagination.  I always answer the same whenever someone asks me this… do you remember waking up this morning? How can you be certain that it is truly your real memory of waking up this morning… they inevitably say, because I can remember it (of course!) and I usually say, it is the same way with memories you recover. You recognise them as your own.

The memories I have are my own memories of my own eternal life. They never change. I have been writing them down since they began to resurface in my twenties and they are still the same memories today – though they tend to grow in detail the more I look at them over time.

I realised today that the things I say are quite different to what most people say on a spiritual level though I am not alone in terms of my subject matter. Many, many religions over time have believed the things I talk about today. I simply googled ‘time repeats’ and found a multitude of different philosophers and great thinkers who have been stating this to be a real potential since time began (that we’re aware of).  It is referred to as ‘Eternal Return’ or ‘eternal recurrence.’ To name but a couple of its various titles in philosophical terms.

This is the first paragraph on Wikipedia…

Eternal return (also known as “eternal recurrence”) is a concept that the universe and all existence and energy has been recurring, and will continue to recur, in a self-similar form an infinite number of times across infinite time or space. The concept is found in Indian philosophy and in ancient Egypt and was subsequently taken up by the Pythagoreans and Stoics.

In addition, the philosophical concept of eternal recurrence was addressed by Arthur Schopenhauer. It is a purely physical concept, involving no supernatural reincarnation, but the return of beings in the same bodies. Time is viewed as being not linear but cyclical

 

This page alone contains reams and reams on the subject and I won’t discuss them all though Nietzsche was really huge on this subject and is well worth a read…This paragraph of his was often quoted by my friend whenever we discussed this subject some months before my memories came back.

…What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: ‘This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more’ … Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: ‘You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine.’ [The Gay Science, §341]

I’m going to get into this subject in some depth in forth-coming posts I think but for now all I can say is this…

I know I do not have all of the answers, but I know that the life I have lived from the age of twenty one, when the universe took me literally out of my life and deliberately woke me up as well as the memories I’ve remembered from the time of my awakening which were given to me with the intention of helping others, have all came about for a reason… I know that I have no choice but to continue down this road even though it would be much easier and probably more fun for me not to do so. I was told before my incarnation that no one would believe what I was here to tell them…so its not a big deal really. I’m prepared for the failure in current time lol.

I know that in many previous cycles, the knowledge that I am here to disseminate makes me incredibly famous (about 50 years after my death lol)…sad it will have no effect on my current life cycle, which is partially why I wonder why I am bothering… then I remember. There is only one reason I fight on as I do without any real reason to, no matter how much this stuff messes up my life…

You.

At the end of the day…anyone can read, think and ponder for a few years and begin to ‘think’ they know everything… but I will go back to my original example question…

How do you know when you finally know the truth…

You just know.

It’s strange because I really am quite happy to go and spend my life working in oblivion for some random call centre, while the rest of the world increasingly runs around like a chicken without a head, wishing it had some kind of true assistance… everyone continually arguing with each other about how great each others thoughts are and how amazing their so-called gurus are… but getting no further forward.

I don’t want to be anyone’s guru… but I think that what I am here to say is somewhat different to the spiritual norm and could be genuinely be of aid to our world.

So I will continue to plod on and if anyone wishes to seek me out then I will be HERE.

…“Hi you’re speaking to Gillian today, how can I help you?” lol… if only they knew how I could really help them (giggle).

Oh well, maybe they will know in about fifty years lol.

Speak to you all again soon,

ME xxx

Goodbye To Groups…

I have spent four months sharing my knowledge online. Until this year I have remained in solitude with what I know, awaiting the day I would be told that it was time to share. That time came in January and I began to release my life’s work.

Everywhere I looked I was told that only Facebook and Twitter had the volumes of people required to disseminate what I knew to others… and so I began making associations and opened a Facebook account. I started spending time in the spiritual groups based online there. I came to realise recently that what I was told was not true.

I do not need either of those places to disseminate my story. I don’t need anyone to care about my books. I don’t need people to agree with me or tell me that my knowledge is true. I was not performing this service for any kind of acknowledgement or reward. I have made nothing from my work and do not expect to do so…

I am simply following my own path and doing what was asked of me when I first began to be taught by the universe. As I see it, I have now fulfilled that request and with the release of my next book, I will have told my story up until present time. I have released my thoughts within the confines of this blog for any who wish to read them. I will one day write another book, which will be my last. Until then I am happily planning to live a normal life in a very normal way.

The universe (as I have found many times before) has a way of always getting what it wants. If I am destined to create the sanctuary before I leave this incarnation, then that will happen to me… It is not something I need to chase.

I found my online life to be nothing short of a constant struggle with the huge egos of millions of people, who have been sold on the concept, that in a mass sea of ignorance, everyone has something worthy of being said and considered valid.

Do not misunderstand me. I too believe that individual reality is the only way forward for us in terms of our spiritual development. My problem arises when individuals with no real depth of spiritual understanding other than that which they have gleaned from others or learnt glibly from books, try to sell those truths to others as somehow equally valid and try to take cash from others in the process. It is one thing to attempt to help people to develop, it is quite another to take advantage of the weak minded and vulnerable.

We now find ourselves in a large ocean of voices which is translated into nothing short of vinegar for the spiritual thirst of any who may actually venture in, seeking inspiration or true guidance. We have lost our way, in trying to find our way forward together.

Spiritually, we no longer recognise those who truly have something worth listening to. Instead we are more likely to seek the council of those who wish to con us out of our money with promises of instant results, simply because such people are better at marketing their product and packaging them in pretty ribbons. We are like magpies that are easily attracted to shinning things. The truly wise people among us generally don’t care enough to do this and so are over-looked.

I have come to the conclusion that I should withdraw from all of the groups, though not the friends I have made in them. I will no longer partake in the constant childish squabbles that inevitably erupt while people are screaming to be heard above each other as really all they ever want is to be heard rather than to hear. Facebook is not helpful in its current format. It was for the above reasons that I have decided to post in my blog and remain solitary now. I have a small face book group too which I have set free though will continue to participate in if others seek me out there. I have made my Facebook page private now and will no longer be displaying who I am friends with from now onwards.

I have walked my own path for 23 years and for almost all of that time, I have not read the nonsense sold to the mass spiritual market. I create my own reality instead. It is a far more pleasant ride. I have God / my husband within and he is with me. I am lead from that place of power. I will share my work still and you are welcome to read it here. So let whoever wishes to read, come and read. To everyone else, I wish you all the best of luck in your own personal journey.

All my love,

Gillian