The True Reason Why A Twin Flame May Run Away…

I’ve been slowly becoming aware this year, that the process of a twin partner running away could have a reason beyond them simply being afraid or overwhelmed…

For seven years now my husband (sorry, I still can’t get with the program regarding calling him my twin lol) has gone away. He never said goodbye…he never claimed not to love me. He never told me to get over him and leave him alone…. Actually, he’s never ever said anything of the kind…. he simply hasn’t said…anything.

This has had the effect of forcing me to rely on nothing more than our internal communication for every kind of contact with him, from emotional to verbal… to everything else a relationship normally enjoys lol.

We all acknowledge frequently that the twin pairs are telepathic with one another among other things. They can communicate in thoughts, feelings and touch so what I’m suggesting is really quite logical. After all, if one of your senses is removed from you in your daily life, you tend to rely on the remaining senses much more; so much more that they become heightened and develop to a far greater extent.

Before my husband disappeared on me, we had one final conversation. I remember his discussing almost in passing, the fact that I was ‘there’ now and would probably never ever quit on him now, no matter what he did. Seemingly satisfied with that conclusion, he never spoke to me again lol.

It seems quite obvious really that the purpose for his disappearing on me was to force us to develop internally. It took me until the start of this year to forgive him for ‘leaving me’ as I saw it. Since January I have opened up internally to him once again and we have had a fairly constant internal relationship. He has given me his usual instructions in that manner too (I’ve pretty much ignored them mostly until recently, as I didn’t agree with them for the most part). However, he normally always gets his own way eventually lol.

He is still refusing all efforts by me to get him to speak and I’m usually pretty good but to no avail this time. He is completely behind a brick wall and he is refusing to come out.

I suppose I’m sharing this with you all in the hope that it gives you a different perspective on the negative aspect of the twin running away thing… There is a positive to every negative and perhaps this one is worth the suffering. The ability to communicate with your twin in this manner is a skill that will be more than necessary later on in the work to come. It is also the first and most vital part of union.

If you cannot merge and become one when required you will eternally suffer their loss whenever they are not with you and that feeling can be seriously debilitating. On top of this, the ability to merge means that you are a much stronger and more powerful being both together and independently of each other.

It is also a vital component of spiritual enlightenment. I won’t go into this one too deeply right now, but ultimately, we all have to take our masks off and return to our true self at some point… being able to merge is a vital part of that process (though I did all of this the wrong way around lol).

I have my final session in the studio today (I hope) and then I can finally put book two to bed just in time for my cruise to Norway 😉

Speak to you all later on,

ME xxx

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Both Of My Books Are Free on Amazon This Weekend

Hey Guys!

This is just a quick reminder that both of my books are free on Amazon today. Just go through the normal check out procedure and it will show a price of 0.00.  

Also, I still have some UK and USA codes left for my audio book if anyone would like to hear my first book instead. Reviews on Amazon for would be highly appreciated too, thanks.

Have a great weekend guys and don’t forget to let me know what you thought!

Love, 

ME x

The Forever Romance Books – Both Free This Coming Weekend On Amazon

I’ve decided to place both my 1st and 2nd book on promotion this weekend, which means you can download both kindle versions for free on either Saturday or Sunday.

I only get 5 free days every 90 days so I like to spread them out a little for those who miss them on previous dates.

I want to make a small request of you all today. I am just a struggling little author with no large publishing house behind me and no money for publicity. I desperately need help in terms of reviews on both of my books and would be thrilled if anyone was in a position to either give me a review on Amazon or on their blogs, if they felt so moved…

If anyone would like to review either but lacks time and would be happy to create something from the audio copy just drop me a line and I will happily forward you a free copy of either or both.

Don’t forget to grab them while they’re free this weekend.

Thanks for any help offered guys.

Love,

ME x

Twin Flames Connection In My New Audio-book

Hi Guys

I’ve given out a fair few copies of my audio book now and I’m thrilled with the feedback I’ve been getting. Being new to the whole twin flame philosophy I wasn’t sure if anyone would consider it to be a twin flame story or not, but so far the answer seems to definitely be in the affirmative.

I still have a few free promo codes if anyone would like to listen for free and give me a review… I thought I’d share the reviews I’ve had so far 😊 Drop me a line if you want a code 😊

 

“Magnificent piece “

I love this can’t get enough I keep listening I’m on my 3rd time listening. Every chapter is interesting My favorite part is Gillian spiritual Husband carl and the relationship of pain love and joy she endures with carl. To me it’s like her husband carl is her twin flame. A beautiful story of Awakening to higher being Help. I cried and laughed I can really relate as far as having a spiritual being helping and guiding me as carl has to Gillian. Her father as well an interesting part of this story he too guiding her in spirit. I’m anxiously awaiting for part 2.

 

“An exceptional portrayal of the twin flame phenomena”

Within 10 minutes listening to the narrator tell this story I knew I was going to enjoy this book. I listened to 6 chapters and the 2nd day I let the rest of the story unfold as by then I was utterly hooked and curious as to when she could be physical ly United with Karl. As the book ended I had a brief pining for more of this story. Although the author never states this is actually a twin flame experience, I sensed it was almost immediately. and another experience she doesn’t label as such as a heart centre awakening but I clearly gathered it was as she states, “I felt warmth transpire, it was close to erotic” possibly not exact words but nevertheless she captured this perfectly.
Another thing I would like to mention is the convincing conversations with God that she calls Father that take place sporadically through this novel. the voices in her head one of which is father and the other Karl and I love how she can differentiate the energy of both and know which one it belongs to. This novel is perfectly attributed to the twin flame experience. I look forward to next release

 

“a story that will keep you intrigued”

Great story with life wisdom weaved in and keeps you coming back for more…

 

This review is from: Dancing Through Forever (The Forever Romance Book 1) (Kindle Edition)

Loved your book, I cried. I have had so many weird things happen to me and I now feel less alone. Thank you. 🙂

Eternal Recurrence – or Self Perpetuating Time Loop (As I call it)

I’ve been having a slight reversal of attitude recently regarding my own contribution to spirituality in this world. I’ve spent so much time online recently and along with a wish to spend more time offline and in the real world, I came to the conclusion recently that my thoughts and contribution were not really all that necessary, given how many others clearly seem to know what is going on. I therefore withdrew and began heading back towards a regular existence with a plan to happily cease worrying about it all…unplugging the computer happily.

At the end of the day, it is very hard to be seen. It is very hard to be heard… in the vast ocean of other people’s opinions. Everyone believes they know what is going on… To say I do not feel the same would be a lie, only I don’t really use the work believe anymore.

Recently I have began to think differently to the above thoughts and have become more and more certain that withdrawal is not on the cards for me, no matter what I might want.

I am not actually offering my opinions in actual fact, as I don’t think ‘belief’ or ‘thinking’ have much to offer. Everyone is on an ever developing path and will believe different things at different times as they progress. What you believe today would have been laughed at by your former self some years ago…and so it goes on ad infinitum.

I am offering a glimpse into eternity.  I have awoken and remember my reality from the view point of all the collective memories I have now, memories which were prearranged to re-emerge within my lifetime. I can only look at them with my current mind and use them to put the pieces together. There are some conclusions which are undeniable and are not a result of my subjective thinking. They are simply a remembered fact.

Someone asked me recently how you know when memories are really your own memories and not just an implant or imagination.  I always answer the same whenever someone asks me this… do you remember waking up this morning? How can you be certain that it is truly your real memory of waking up this morning… they inevitably say, because I can remember it (of course!) and I usually say, it is the same way with memories you recover. You recognise them as your own.

The memories I have are my own memories of my own eternal life. They never change. I have been writing them down since they began to resurface in my twenties and they are still the same memories today – though they tend to grow in detail the more I look at them over time.

I realised today that the things I say are quite different to what most people say on a spiritual level though I am not alone in terms of my subject matter. Many, many religions over time have believed the things I talk about today. I simply googled ‘time repeats’ and found a multitude of different philosophers and great thinkers who have been stating this to be a real potential since time began (that we’re aware of).  It is referred to as ‘Eternal Return’ or ‘eternal recurrence.’ To name but a couple of its various titles in philosophical terms.

This is the first paragraph on Wikipedia…

Eternal return (also known as “eternal recurrence”) is a concept that the universe and all existence and energy has been recurring, and will continue to recur, in a self-similar form an infinite number of times across infinite time or space. The concept is found in Indian philosophy and in ancient Egypt and was subsequently taken up by the Pythagoreans and Stoics.

In addition, the philosophical concept of eternal recurrence was addressed by Arthur Schopenhauer. It is a purely physical concept, involving no supernatural reincarnation, but the return of beings in the same bodies. Time is viewed as being not linear but cyclical

 

This page alone contains reams and reams on the subject and I won’t discuss them all though Nietzsche was really huge on this subject and is well worth a read…This paragraph of his was often quoted by my friend whenever we discussed this subject some months before my memories came back.

…What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: ‘This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more’ … Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: ‘You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine.’ [The Gay Science, §341]

I’m going to get into this subject in some depth in forth-coming posts I think but for now all I can say is this…

I know I do not have all of the answers, but I know that the life I have lived from the age of twenty one, when the universe took me literally out of my life and deliberately woke me up as well as the memories I’ve remembered from the time of my awakening which were given to me with the intention of helping others, have all came about for a reason… I know that I have no choice but to continue down this road even though it would be much easier and probably more fun for me not to do so. I was told before my incarnation that no one would believe what I was here to tell them…so its not a big deal really. I’m prepared for the failure in current time lol.

I know that in many previous cycles, the knowledge that I am here to disseminate makes me incredibly famous (about 50 years after my death lol)…sad it will have no effect on my current life cycle, which is partially why I wonder why I am bothering… then I remember. There is only one reason I fight on as I do without any real reason to, no matter how much this stuff messes up my life…

You.

At the end of the day…anyone can read, think and ponder for a few years and begin to ‘think’ they know everything… but I will go back to my original example question…

How do you know when you finally know the truth…

You just know.

It’s strange because I really am quite happy to go and spend my life working in oblivion for some random call centre, while the rest of the world increasingly runs around like a chicken without a head, wishing it had some kind of true assistance… everyone continually arguing with each other about how great each others thoughts are and how amazing their so-called gurus are… but getting no further forward.

I don’t want to be anyone’s guru… but I think that what I am here to say is somewhat different to the spiritual norm and could be genuinely be of aid to our world.

So I will continue to plod on and if anyone wishes to seek me out then I will be HERE.

…“Hi you’re speaking to Gillian today, how can I help you?” lol… if only they knew how I could really help them (giggle).

Oh well, maybe they will know in about fifty years lol.

Speak to you all again soon,

ME xxx

Goodbye To Groups…

I have spent four months sharing my knowledge online. Until this year I have remained in solitude with what I know, awaiting the day I would be told that it was time to share. That time came in January and I began to release my life’s work.

Everywhere I looked I was told that only Facebook and Twitter had the volumes of people required to disseminate what I knew to others… and so I began making associations and opened a Facebook account. I started spending time in the spiritual groups based online there. I came to realise recently that what I was told was not true.

I do not need either of those places to disseminate my story. I don’t need anyone to care about my books. I don’t need people to agree with me or tell me that my knowledge is true. I was not performing this service for any kind of acknowledgement or reward. I have made nothing from my work and do not expect to do so…

I am simply following my own path and doing what was asked of me when I first began to be taught by the universe. As I see it, I have now fulfilled that request and with the release of my next book, I will have told my story up until present time. I have released my thoughts within the confines of this blog for any who wish to read them. I will one day write another book, which will be my last. Until then I am happily planning to live a normal life in a very normal way.

The universe (as I have found many times before) has a way of always getting what it wants. If I am destined to create the sanctuary before I leave this incarnation, then that will happen to me… It is not something I need to chase.

I found my online life to be nothing short of a constant struggle with the huge egos of millions of people, who have been sold on the concept, that in a mass sea of ignorance, everyone has something worthy of being said and considered valid.

Do not misunderstand me. I too believe that individual reality is the only way forward for us in terms of our spiritual development. My problem arises when individuals with no real depth of spiritual understanding other than that which they have gleaned from others or learnt glibly from books, try to sell those truths to others as somehow equally valid and try to take cash from others in the process. It is one thing to attempt to help people to develop, it is quite another to take advantage of the weak minded and vulnerable.

We now find ourselves in a large ocean of voices which is translated into nothing short of vinegar for the spiritual thirst of any who may actually venture in, seeking inspiration or true guidance. We have lost our way, in trying to find our way forward together.

Spiritually, we no longer recognise those who truly have something worth listening to. Instead we are more likely to seek the council of those who wish to con us out of our money with promises of instant results, simply because such people are better at marketing their product and packaging them in pretty ribbons. We are like magpies that are easily attracted to shinning things. The truly wise people among us generally don’t care enough to do this and so are over-looked.

I have come to the conclusion that I should withdraw from all of the groups, though not the friends I have made in them. I will no longer partake in the constant childish squabbles that inevitably erupt while people are screaming to be heard above each other as really all they ever want is to be heard rather than to hear. Facebook is not helpful in its current format. It was for the above reasons that I have decided to post in my blog and remain solitary now. I have a small face book group too which I have set free though will continue to participate in if others seek me out there. I have made my Facebook page private now and will no longer be displaying who I am friends with from now onwards.

I have walked my own path for 23 years and for almost all of that time, I have not read the nonsense sold to the mass spiritual market. I create my own reality instead. It is a far more pleasant ride. I have God / my husband within and he is with me. I am lead from that place of power. I will share my work still and you are welcome to read it here. So let whoever wishes to read, come and read. To everyone else, I wish you all the best of luck in your own personal journey.

All my love,

Gillian