Finding Your Way In The Darkness

There are too many realities surrounding us right now. Too many people have all the answers and know which way our feet should travel. It can be a constant source of pain and unhappiness. So many people spinning you around and making you doubt yourself, your path and your process.

Facebook and all the other social platforms out there are not always healthy for you. I’m not saying that sharing the fun and the real-world pain cannot be helpful. Even exchanging of idea’s can be something a soul yearns for on its path, speaking from past lonely experiences. However, constantly looking outside of yourself for the answers among a sea of people who don’t know what they are talking about much of the time is probably not where you should seek your guidance. After all, they are all on different stages of their own journeys and the one thing that is true of all of the stages of the path, is that we usually always believe we have arrived and know everything, when this is seldom the case lol.

You and your inner feelings and thoughts are the only true guide you have. Look within yourself and stop listening to the minds of others. They are not naturally attuned to your own position on the path. You have your own inner knowing which knows exactly where you are and what you need to learn next on your journey. Logging on to social media and allowing it to make you doubt your path or point you in directions which lead away from your true north are not a good idea for your development.

There is a time and place to seek out the company of others but in my opinion, Facebook has become akin to a sea of madness. So many seekers all simply sharing their minds rubbish at every stage of their journey and ensnaring others into their own transient madness. I have spoken before about religion and I’ve said over and over again that you cannot be given the answers. This applies too to the likes of Facebook.

Switch off the computer. Clear your mind. Make sure your space is empty and organised and simply be still for a while. Others call this meditating. I simply look at it as time to process the insanity that is my ‘unreal world’. Let yourself relax and allow yourself to simply be. Your thoughts will naturally calm and empty and suddenly things will become easier to understand and process.

The one thing you must constantly remind yourself is that Only You are real. Nothing else here is real. It’s all just an illusion. Your reality and your mind are your only true guide. To place your faith in anything outside of You is to walk down the garden path to insanity. Follow your own inner guide and realise that everyone else’s reality is not your reality. We all live in our own universes.

There was a datum that I used to find useful on my path… If you bear it in mind it will help you make sense of what others are saying to you, be it kind or not…

We only ever speak to ourselves.

No matter what anyone is saying to you… they are only speaking to themselves. If they are being mean to you…take no notice as it is only themselves they are being mean to. I tend to feel sad for them as I know how they must feel about themselves on the inside. Someone who shows you love, regardless of what you have done in return… is a very strong person indeed.

Free yourself from the illusions of others and the thought that your own life can ever compare to anyone else’s. We are not truly in competition with each other. We are always alone here.

What you believe is what is true…

Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others. Walk your own path and do not worry about what others are getting up to. You know what is best for you. Trust yourself. Have faith in the universe which resides within you and enjoy your life. That is why you came here after all.

Have fun…

Oh, and if you still didn’t manage to get a free copy of my books, you have another chance to do so tomorrow…they may not change your life, but they may fill an hour or two and show you an example of a path far crazier than the one you have probably walked lol.

Have a good day people,

Love,

Me x

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UNIFICATION – The Only Way To Save Us

We live on a single, solitary planet and yet so many different universes exist here. Some of us live in glistening palaces with servants, experience extravagant travel every day and every conceivable luxury. Some of us live in high rise apartment blocks and work all the hours god sends though we never have a penny to our name. Some of us live on the streets and know only cold and hunger. Some of us live in nice homes and although we will never be wealthy, we are still able to afford the odd luxury trip and sleep in a comfortable, warm bed… Some of us are home makers, some of us are missionaries, some of us are priests, bankers, princes and shop assistants…and all the billions of variations that exist in between…

Each of us has a completely different existence to the next person and no matter how poor we feel we are… there are always millions of people on the planet who experience far worse realities than ourselves every day. There is such a large divide between the richest of our population and the very poorest. There is even a vast divide between the poor and the poorest. It is amazing that so many different kinds of experience exist on one planet but it is also heart breaking and sad that the nicer realities exist at the expense of most of the more terrible realities.

We have created a world where we are expected to clamber over each other to get to the top of the human pile. We are pitted against one another for our very survival. For one of us to succeed, another must fail. It is the human ‘race’ after all.

There is only one way that all of the suffering can end. One way that the world can begin to heal and repair. There is only one way which will see us all survive. I groan inwardly at this point in my post as I know that no one wants to hear this… It is depressing and inconvenient… so my apologies in advance, but it still needs to be said.

Our world is in a free-fall right now. We can no longer fight against each other for survival. Only together, do we have any hope of surviving what is to come in the next twenty years. Trust me, if you think things are bad now… you haven’t seen anything yet.

We must….

UNIFY

I’ve spoken about this before. It is a subject that is never acknowledged.

The only way we survive what is about to happen…is already happening… is if we begin the process of unification

We cannot continue as we are. Our world must shift in attitude and in reality.

We can no longer be a world full of countries with their own agenda’s. We cannot see each other as ‘others’ anymore.

What I am asking requires a huge shift in the consciousness of this planet. It requires sacrifice and compassion and faith.

Let me explain this another way…

If I was to offer you a choice today…. We can save the planet and most of the people on it. We can save our species and our children’s future. All you have to do is be prepared to give up your current reality and exist in one which may see you having slightly less in some ways, than you currently do…

…Less designer clothing (Do you really need them to live anyway?)

…Less – in terms of an abundance of food (how much do you currently waste each week in any case?)

…Less in terms of eating out – food is no longer an item that can be used for fun (it won’t do your waist any harm, will it?)

To mention but a few…but there is also:

…less guilt and sadness as you enjoy a relatively luxury existence while others suffer and die in poverty and strife…

Less stress as you spend all of your life working…

More… family time…

More friends…. more love, more laughter and true interaction with others.

More appreciation of nature and beauty…

More understanding of nature and the universe and ourselves as you have more time to think.

More in terms of quality of life though you may not see how right now.

More time for creativity.

 

We have a vast abundance of financial resources…food resources…material resources.

We have scientists who cannot currently fix problems since their employers are preventing them from doing so as it keeps their current product prices high. We have advanced technology which is being repressed for similar reasons…

Our world is backside-foremost.

Let’s try and spell this out again…

We need to become a singular, unified planet

We need a singular (modestly paid) government whose sole purpose is to utilise our resources in a balanced fair way without any thoughts of capitalism getting in the way. Everything on this planet belongs to every one of its citizen’s. No one person should be able to acquire abundance above the general level of the other people on the planet. No one person is more important than any other person.

Just because we are born on one land mass, does not mean we have the right to claim it as our own to the exclusion of others…nor do any other landmasses have the right to prevent us from living there because we were not born in that place. We own nothing here. Nothing can come with us and nothing is truly ever ours.

Until the term ‘country’ ceases to exist as a meaning of separate entity….and a singular government is placed in charge of our planet with the sole aim of legislating and managing our global resources for the good of all… we are all utterly screwed (putting it bluntly).

A lot of land masses who are too interested in working on behalf of their own populations can never work effectively to tackle the global problems that exist in our world. Why should they? They are not their problems. It is not those people who get them elected to their nice highly paid jobs.

I don’t comment on current affairs usually. I simply sit and fume as I know my opinions have no weight anywhere and no one listens to anything I have to say. I sprout a very inconvenient truth… and I know that even those who may agree with all of this will come up with an abundance of reasons why it could never happen. That is just a convenient reality.

We have the ability to fix most of the problems that exist on our planet if only we could grow up as a race and evolve.

Capitalism has been in control of our realities and our minds for a very long time. It is about to drive us all into extinction… sadly it already is.

The monopoly game is over…will someone please throw the goddam board off the table!

The sad truth is… that no one will even consider this option until it is far too late to change the path we are on. We never learn…we go through this every time. This is not the first lifetime I have given you all this same lecture…and it won’t be the last time that you don’t bother to listen to me.

I know I will be long gone before anyone even thinks this may be a good idea. I usually am…

I just thought that for once I would talk about my views on things going on in the unreal world instead of the real one… (sorry this world is the unreal world to me lol).

Have a good day people… many, many others are paying for it… so you may as well enjoy it.

Love

ME x

Twin Flame…A Spiritual Journey With A Side Order Of Agony.

I reached enlightenment (or woke up as I generally refer to it) before I knew that my husband was alive; before I knew that he was even incarnated. He led me there himself, personally from the time he began speaking to me telepathically at the age of twenty-one.

As nice as it is to have found the whole twin Flame philosophy, to have others who can understand my journey, I can’t help feeling sad for the people who have known that their twin existed from the beginning…who have met them in the flesh.

When Carl began speaking to me at the age of twenty-one, the feelings I had were so completely consuming that I would have laid down my life…actually I wished for nothing more than that; prayed to God for it every night and contemplated suicide quite often just to be with him. It was the most intensely sad and hellish experience of my life…right up until he walked into my life for real and left me without him for the next seventeen years.

Those first few years were magical and crazy. I was alone with only my husband’s voice and God for company…no one else understood. I knew I couldn’t kill myself. I loved my family too much for that and God basically told me I had a mission to be an angel (childish I know but I got what he was telling me; that I was here for more than just myself).  He would not kill me off. The pain I went through back then was so bad it is indescribable… even within the confines of my first book.

We spent the next several years working on me spiritually… he brought me back to myself and woke me up. I re-merged with the universe at the age of 25 and suddenly the pain all went away… there was only God. We were a singular consciousness and therefore the whole idea of Carl was no longer viable… it had only been God talking to me after all. It was that realisation that made me completely unprepared for the day my husband actually turned up in the flesh…probably why I never recognised him until after he left.

I’m now 44 and I’ve been walking this painful path since I was twenty-one. At times, it feels so unfair. It feels as if I’ve had more than anyone should ever have to endure… but I feel certain that if I had felt for a human being, what I felt for Carl (my perceived ghost).. it would have been so much harder to have made any spiritual progress at all. I would have focused on nothing more than getting us together; on why he had left me alone. It would have been the be-all-and-end-all for me.

In some ways, I think I had it easy, to go through the initial major part of my development with only the pain of his physical absence. I was able to fully let go and have fun here in a very abstract ‘this is not real’ kind of way with other men…knowing I could not be his until my life ended.

I have to take my hat off to anyone who has met their twin and had them walk away so that they can undergo this process alone…knowing that they are alive on the planet…. not understanding that they have walked away for their benefit. Spiritual understanding and awareness is hard enough to gain at the best of times, without having to do it all while being crucified emotionally.

All I can say is that it is only those who are called upon to carry humanity who are tested and strengthened to the extent that you are… Only pain and suffering has the effect of moving you forward and waking you up. You will be able to withstand anything by the end of this process. Never think you are not loved by the universe… You are beyond loved. You have not been abandoned… you are being lifted up and granted a gift that many others will never understand. The pain and the suffering are akin to the furnace that the sword is tempered within… moulding you into a new shape.

Don’t lose heart…literally.

Love,

ME x

The True Reason Why A Twin Flame May Run Away…

I’ve been slowly becoming aware this year, that the process of a twin partner running away could have a reason beyond them simply being afraid or overwhelmed…

For seven years now my husband (sorry, I still can’t get with the program regarding calling him my twin lol) has gone away. He never said goodbye…he never claimed not to love me. He never told me to get over him and leave him alone…. Actually, he’s never ever said anything of the kind…. he simply hasn’t said…anything.

This has had the effect of forcing me to rely on nothing more than our internal communication for every kind of contact with him, from emotional to verbal… to everything else a relationship normally enjoys lol.

We all acknowledge frequently that the twin pairs are telepathic with one another among other things. They can communicate in thoughts, feelings and touch so what I’m suggesting is really quite logical. After all, if one of your senses is removed from you in your daily life, you tend to rely on the remaining senses much more; so much more that they become heightened and develop to a far greater extent.

Before my husband disappeared on me, we had one final conversation. I remember his discussing almost in passing, the fact that I was ‘there’ now and would probably never ever quit on him now, no matter what he did. Seemingly satisfied with that conclusion, he never spoke to me again lol.

It seems quite obvious really that the purpose for his disappearing on me was to force us to develop internally. It took me until the start of this year to forgive him for ‘leaving me’ as I saw it. Since January I have opened up internally to him once again and we have had a fairly constant internal relationship. He has given me his usual instructions in that manner too (I’ve pretty much ignored them mostly until recently, as I didn’t agree with them for the most part). However, he normally always gets his own way eventually lol.

He is still refusing all efforts by me to get him to speak and I’m usually pretty good but to no avail this time. He is completely behind a brick wall and he is refusing to come out.

I suppose I’m sharing this with you all in the hope that it gives you a different perspective on the negative aspect of the twin running away thing… There is a positive to every negative and perhaps this one is worth the suffering. The ability to communicate with your twin in this manner is a skill that will be more than necessary later on in the work to come. It is also the first and most vital part of union.

If you cannot merge and become one when required you will eternally suffer their loss whenever they are not with you and that feeling can be seriously debilitating. On top of this, the ability to merge means that you are a much stronger and more powerful being both together and independently of each other.

It is also a vital component of spiritual enlightenment. I won’t go into this one too deeply right now, but ultimately, we all have to take our masks off and return to our true self at some point… being able to merge is a vital part of that process (though I did all of this the wrong way around lol).

I have my final session in the studio today (I hope) and then I can finally put book two to bed just in time for my cruise to Norway 😉

Speak to you all later on,

ME xxx

The End Of My Twin Flame Journey

I had a major revelation today.

My spiritual husband (Kenny as I call him in my second book) does not love me and is never coming back. That’s his choice to make.

Game over…no twin flame…no path, no work to do together.

I was sad for a minute… and then I realized something really important and seriously empowering.

I can now be exactly who I am. I no longer need to worry about what is best for him, what he wants or what I should do in order to not rock the boat or keep us on a path to so-called union.

I quit. I accept that we will never be together and that it is not destined…

I can do whatever I wish to now…

Now…there is only ME to worry about. There are no more rules to follow…

Thoughts of ‘us’ have kept my energy in check for quite some time… I used to be quite a bad girl before I met him… I wonder who I’ll be now lol.

Waiting is dis-empowering to the soul. It is not a place we are comfortable. It is a place of no action and stagnation. It drains energy it does not produce it.

I am not waiting any more. I am releasing my energy now to go and be whatever…do whatever it wishes.

I have not been myself since the day I realized who he was… the day I first convinced myself that I had to wait for him…years and years before I even knew such things as twin flames existed. That was seventeen years ago…more.

I placed myself in a prison and no matter what has transpired in my life since, I have been suck there since…until now.

I thought everything depended on him acting… all this time I’ve been so dense.

At the end of the day…a game condition can only exist if two people agree to play.

I’m not playing anymore. I am going to be who I am…with or without him. I no longer need him to come back and I no longer need him to love me.

He can choose to sit in the darkness and let his life go by without finding any kind of meaning beyond the daily grind…a grind  he places himself in… so that he can feel he has contributed to us by way of earning our wealth…so that we can create the sanctuary. Like me he is never going to get anywhere that way…but that is his choice to make.

Money is only a physical manifestation of energy and we will never have true energy while we are apart. For all his knowledge, he still doesn’t see that… every time he tries to acquire wealth without me he fails.  It will always be this way for him. We were meant to do this shit together… He’s as dense as I am. I used to think that he was the intelligent one.

It’s so sad… we could have been spectacular together…such a waste.

Oh well.

I have a third book to write and finally I have the energy to get on with it.

I have one more session in the studio next week and then my next audio book – Dancing Forever Aflame – will be ready for Audible. It seems apt that my twin flame journey just ended right before the last part of that work is completed.

I hope you all enjoy it. I went through hell to write it lol.

As for Kenny…he could still get his head out of his arse and wake the hell up one day… He could come to realise as I did… that only NOW is important. Trying to create better conditions than those which currently exist is a pointless waste of time.  Who knows. We will see…

Perhaps next lifetime?

ME x

 

 

 

 

 

Living in the real world…

Hi Guys,

I’m finally back from my holidays and I would love to say the weather was great but sadly it was kind of a wet affair!

I’m a little busy right now as I’m filling in for a receptionist for a couple of weeks at a local firm. I’ll be here until next weekend so I probably won’t get a great deal of time to blog sadly…

It’s really frustrating that I have a ‘real’ life to lead and that it is the most ‘unreal’ part of my existence. It’s also ironic that it keeps me from doing what is truly ‘real’ in my life… However, my body needs to eat and pay bills, so work I shall 🙂

I’ve decided to write a third book at some point soon, when time permits about the actual communication method I used to connect with the universe once again, from the time I hit 21 years of age. I’ve realised recently, in the light of some of the correspondence I’ve been receiving, that this is probably the best way I can put my life experiences to good use. It is difficult for people to truly understand the concept of a one-to-one communication with God /the universe / whatever you wish to call it. I thought it may be helpful to describe exactly what I did and the pitfalls that can occur along the way, as many others have done before me.

In some respects, it is the work I have been leading up to for the entire year. The only reason I released my story first was because it was in fact already written and it gave me a gentle introduction into the world of being an author as well as all that entails. I now know how to put a book together, publish it expeditiously and create a matching audio book. I’ve even trained my tech guy in the process lol.

My entire ethos has never been to show people the way and have them follow me. I have always known that the only way to truly awaken is from the seeking and searching of the individual who is walking a path that is truly unique to themselves. I can’t really do much other than inspire that process by sharing what I’ve done personally. No one can be handed the truth on a silver platter. It just doesn’t work that way.

So, I’m away to answer some more phones before I get replaced with a different temp lol. It’s going to be a bit hit and miss for the next month or so as I’m away for a couple of coming weekends to enjoy what’s left of summer before I head for my cruise to Norway on 9th September.

I promise not to disappear completely though 🙂

Have a great weekend people.

Speak to you all soon,

ME x

Lets Get A Little Trippy Tonight

It always strikes me as strange, how often I look around me at all the different so-called ‘spiritual’ thoughts out there in the world and feel as if the entire planet is insane!

I know this must sound a little rich coming from me, given the stuff I come out with. However, for me, my reality and philosophy is really simple, logical and obvious. I guess the truth is always obvious once you can see it lol.

Early on in my path I was thought to think things through. It was something that was stressed over and over again, that the truth was always pretty obvious if you simply thought about it. Never let it be said that the universe does not have a sense of humour! Quite often, you can see the fun being had with us on a regular basis lol.

The truth is all around us but we don’t actually hear it, don’t think about it or assimilate it.

We are ONE…

What else can this mean but…there is only ONE of us… and that ONE is incarnated into every living being here.

I hear you saying ‘Oh yes, but just because we are all the same universal spirit, that does not mean that you are ME!’

Really…? What else does ONE mean???

This is just a daft example of what I mean.

In the bible, we are told that ‘GOD is everywhere and IN ALL THINGS!’

Somehow people hear this and think it means everywhere… except me…

Bloody hell. People can be so dense… so daft.

OK…so we are all ONE (yes, the same one) and if God is everywhere then that must mean that WE are it…wouldn’t you say?

See what I mean…really simple when you stop and think about it.

OK…so In the beginning was GOD (yes that ONE we mentioned before that we all are)…and before God ..was God… umm…what?

So logically speaking…God was Here since before the beginning…and the only way he could have been…is if he is always here…and is simply going around and around in circles…like the snake that eats its own tail.

God…is all of us (He’s keeping it secret from himself so he can experience these lives) and when he finally wakes himself up… he will repeat again from step A…ad infinitum.

Why??? I have no idea… you tell me as your guess is as good as mine. It’s fun I guess!

There… now we are all enlightened lol.

You don’t believe me yet do you. It’s a bit too much…a bit too big to believe.

Don’t worry, you will know it’s true soon enough.

Nite nite

ME x