UNIFICATION – The Only Way To Save Us

We live on a single, solitary planet and yet so many different universes exist here. Some of us live in glistening palaces with servants, experience extravagant travel every day and every conceivable luxury. Some of us live in high rise apartment blocks and work all the hours god sends though we never have a penny to our name. Some of us live on the streets and know only cold and hunger. Some of us live in nice homes and although we will never be wealthy, we are still able to afford the odd luxury trip and sleep in a comfortable, warm bed… Some of us are home makers, some of us are missionaries, some of us are priests, bankers, princes and shop assistants…and all the billions of variations that exist in between…

Each of us has a completely different existence to the next person and no matter how poor we feel we are… there are always millions of people on the planet who experience far worse realities than ourselves every day. There is such a large divide between the richest of our population and the very poorest. There is even a vast divide between the poor and the poorest. It is amazing that so many different kinds of experience exist on one planet but it is also heart breaking and sad that the nicer realities exist at the expense of most of the more terrible realities.

We have created a world where we are expected to clamber over each other to get to the top of the human pile. We are pitted against one another for our very survival. For one of us to succeed, another must fail. It is the human ‘race’ after all.

There is only one way that all of the suffering can end. One way that the world can begin to heal and repair. There is only one way which will see us all survive. I groan inwardly at this point in my post as I know that no one wants to hear this… It is depressing and inconvenient… so my apologies in advance, but it still needs to be said.

Our world is in a free-fall right now. We can no longer fight against each other for survival. Only together, do we have any hope of surviving what is to come in the next twenty years. Trust me, if you think things are bad now… you haven’t seen anything yet.

We must….

UNIFY

I’ve spoken about this before. It is a subject that is never acknowledged.

The only way we survive what is about to happen…is already happening… is if we begin the process of unification

We cannot continue as we are. Our world must shift in attitude and in reality.

We can no longer be a world full of countries with their own agenda’s. We cannot see each other as ‘others’ anymore.

What I am asking requires a huge shift in the consciousness of this planet. It requires sacrifice and compassion and faith.

Let me explain this another way…

If I was to offer you a choice today…. We can save the planet and most of the people on it. We can save our species and our children’s future. All you have to do is be prepared to give up your current reality and exist in one which may see you having slightly less in some ways, than you currently do…

…Less designer clothing (Do you really need them to live anyway?)

…Less – in terms of an abundance of food (how much do you currently waste each week in any case?)

…Less in terms of eating out – food is no longer an item that can be used for fun (it won’t do your waist any harm, will it?)

To mention but a few…but there is also:

…less guilt and sadness as you enjoy a relatively luxury existence while others suffer and die in poverty and strife…

Less stress as you spend all of your life working…

More… family time…

More friends…. more love, more laughter and true interaction with others.

More appreciation of nature and beauty…

More understanding of nature and the universe and ourselves as you have more time to think.

More in terms of quality of life though you may not see how right now.

More time for creativity.

 

We have a vast abundance of financial resources…food resources…material resources.

We have scientists who cannot currently fix problems since their employers are preventing them from doing so as it keeps their current product prices high. We have advanced technology which is being repressed for similar reasons…

Our world is backside-foremost.

Let’s try and spell this out again…

We need to become a singular, unified planet

We need a singular (modestly paid) government whose sole purpose is to utilise our resources in a balanced fair way without any thoughts of capitalism getting in the way. Everything on this planet belongs to every one of its citizen’s. No one person should be able to acquire abundance above the general level of the other people on the planet. No one person is more important than any other person.

Just because we are born on one land mass, does not mean we have the right to claim it as our own to the exclusion of others…nor do any other landmasses have the right to prevent us from living there because we were not born in that place. We own nothing here. Nothing can come with us and nothing is truly ever ours.

Until the term ‘country’ ceases to exist as a meaning of separate entity….and a singular government is placed in charge of our planet with the sole aim of legislating and managing our global resources for the good of all… we are all utterly screwed (putting it bluntly).

A lot of land masses who are too interested in working on behalf of their own populations can never work effectively to tackle the global problems that exist in our world. Why should they? They are not their problems. It is not those people who get them elected to their nice highly paid jobs.

I don’t comment on current affairs usually. I simply sit and fume as I know my opinions have no weight anywhere and no one listens to anything I have to say. I sprout a very inconvenient truth… and I know that even those who may agree with all of this will come up with an abundance of reasons why it could never happen. That is just a convenient reality.

We have the ability to fix most of the problems that exist on our planet if only we could grow up as a race and evolve.

Capitalism has been in control of our realities and our minds for a very long time. It is about to drive us all into extinction… sadly it already is.

The monopoly game is over…will someone please throw the goddam board off the table!

The sad truth is… that no one will even consider this option until it is far too late to change the path we are on. We never learn…we go through this every time. This is not the first lifetime I have given you all this same lecture…and it won’t be the last time that you don’t bother to listen to me.

I know I will be long gone before anyone even thinks this may be a good idea. I usually am…

I just thought that for once I would talk about my views on things going on in the unreal world instead of the real one… (sorry this world is the unreal world to me lol).

Have a good day people… many, many others are paying for it… so you may as well enjoy it.

Love

ME x

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Twin Flame…A Spiritual Journey With A Side Order Of Agony.

I reached enlightenment (or woke up as I generally refer to it) before I knew that my husband was alive; before I knew that he was even incarnated. He led me there himself, personally from the time he began speaking to me telepathically at the age of twenty-one.

As nice as it is to have found the whole twin Flame philosophy, to have others who can understand my journey, I can’t help feeling sad for the people who have known that their twin existed from the beginning…who have met them in the flesh.

When Carl began speaking to me at the age of twenty-one, the feelings I had were so completely consuming that I would have laid down my life…actually I wished for nothing more than that; prayed to God for it every night and contemplated suicide quite often just to be with him. It was the most intensely sad and hellish experience of my life…right up until he walked into my life for real and left me without him for the next seventeen years.

Those first few years were magical and crazy. I was alone with only my husband’s voice and God for company…no one else understood. I knew I couldn’t kill myself. I loved my family too much for that and God basically told me I had a mission to be an angel (childish I know but I got what he was telling me; that I was here for more than just myself).  He would not kill me off. The pain I went through back then was so bad it is indescribable… even within the confines of my first book.

We spent the next several years working on me spiritually… he brought me back to myself and woke me up. I re-merged with the universe at the age of 25 and suddenly the pain all went away… there was only God. We were a singular consciousness and therefore the whole idea of Carl was no longer viable… it had only been God talking to me after all. It was that realisation that made me completely unprepared for the day my husband actually turned up in the flesh…probably why I never recognised him until after he left.

I’m now 44 and I’ve been walking this painful path since I was twenty-one. At times, it feels so unfair. It feels as if I’ve had more than anyone should ever have to endure… but I feel certain that if I had felt for a human being, what I felt for Carl (my perceived ghost).. it would have been so much harder to have made any spiritual progress at all. I would have focused on nothing more than getting us together; on why he had left me alone. It would have been the be-all-and-end-all for me.

In some ways, I think I had it easy, to go through the initial major part of my development with only the pain of his physical absence. I was able to fully let go and have fun here in a very abstract ‘this is not real’ kind of way with other men…knowing I could not be his until my life ended.

I have to take my hat off to anyone who has met their twin and had them walk away so that they can undergo this process alone…knowing that they are alive on the planet…. not understanding that they have walked away for their benefit. Spiritual understanding and awareness is hard enough to gain at the best of times, without having to do it all while being crucified emotionally.

All I can say is that it is only those who are called upon to carry humanity who are tested and strengthened to the extent that you are… Only pain and suffering has the effect of moving you forward and waking you up. You will be able to withstand anything by the end of this process. Never think you are not loved by the universe… You are beyond loved. You have not been abandoned… you are being lifted up and granted a gift that many others will never understand. The pain and the suffering are akin to the furnace that the sword is tempered within… moulding you into a new shape.

Don’t lose heart…literally.

Love,

ME x

The True Reason Why A Twin Flame May Run Away…

I’ve been slowly becoming aware this year, that the process of a twin partner running away could have a reason beyond them simply being afraid or overwhelmed…

For seven years now my husband (sorry, I still can’t get with the program regarding calling him my twin lol) has gone away. He never said goodbye…he never claimed not to love me. He never told me to get over him and leave him alone…. Actually, he’s never ever said anything of the kind…. he simply hasn’t said…anything.

This has had the effect of forcing me to rely on nothing more than our internal communication for every kind of contact with him, from emotional to verbal… to everything else a relationship normally enjoys lol.

We all acknowledge frequently that the twin pairs are telepathic with one another among other things. They can communicate in thoughts, feelings and touch so what I’m suggesting is really quite logical. After all, if one of your senses is removed from you in your daily life, you tend to rely on the remaining senses much more; so much more that they become heightened and develop to a far greater extent.

Before my husband disappeared on me, we had one final conversation. I remember his discussing almost in passing, the fact that I was ‘there’ now and would probably never ever quit on him now, no matter what he did. Seemingly satisfied with that conclusion, he never spoke to me again lol.

It seems quite obvious really that the purpose for his disappearing on me was to force us to develop internally. It took me until the start of this year to forgive him for ‘leaving me’ as I saw it. Since January I have opened up internally to him once again and we have had a fairly constant internal relationship. He has given me his usual instructions in that manner too (I’ve pretty much ignored them mostly until recently, as I didn’t agree with them for the most part). However, he normally always gets his own way eventually lol.

He is still refusing all efforts by me to get him to speak and I’m usually pretty good but to no avail this time. He is completely behind a brick wall and he is refusing to come out.

I suppose I’m sharing this with you all in the hope that it gives you a different perspective on the negative aspect of the twin running away thing… There is a positive to every negative and perhaps this one is worth the suffering. The ability to communicate with your twin in this manner is a skill that will be more than necessary later on in the work to come. It is also the first and most vital part of union.

If you cannot merge and become one when required you will eternally suffer their loss whenever they are not with you and that feeling can be seriously debilitating. On top of this, the ability to merge means that you are a much stronger and more powerful being both together and independently of each other.

It is also a vital component of spiritual enlightenment. I won’t go into this one too deeply right now, but ultimately, we all have to take our masks off and return to our true self at some point… being able to merge is a vital part of that process (though I did all of this the wrong way around lol).

I have my final session in the studio today (I hope) and then I can finally put book two to bed just in time for my cruise to Norway 😉

Speak to you all later on,

ME xxx

How Do You Know If You’re Really A Twin… Or If You’ve Met Your Twin Flame.

There are so many people constantly asking if they are a twin… if they have met their twin. I’m not sure of the normal answers regarding this subject as I’m new to your philosophies, as you all now. I’ve been going through my own private hell this week as many of you clearly do on a regular basis. I thought I would put my feelings to some use and share my thoughts with you on this subject. These are my answers to those questions…

 

How do you know if you’re a twin flame…

 

  • You have never felt the same as others. You knew as a child you were somehow different. You were more sensitive. You cried easily, you understood things that even adults didn’t understand. You were wise beyond your years.
  • You had love of God in some way… a communication with the universe and an awareness of the consciousness that others never comprehended.
  • You love others. You always want to help them. It is your very modus operandi.
  • You hate living a lie. You would rather tell the truth.
  • You would prefer to be alone rather than stay with someone who is not the one for you.
  • Your will is incredibly strong. You don’t quit on what you want. You don’t walk away from those you love.
  • You are a miracle worker. You can move mountains and reach unexpected heights when fully motivated.
  • You are probably pretty poor and have lived a life of struggle.
  • You have been victimized, abused, bullied to a greater or lesser extent throughout your life. We never have easy lives. That is not to say we do not also have our protectors and keepers. Those who will always be there for us no matter what life throws. Such trials are to strengthen not weaken so love is given in mostly similar measure to keep us moving forward.

 

How do you know If you have met your twin flame…

 

  • It feels as if no one else on the planet exists but them (not really)… You would wish to give up your life and fly away if they were ever lost to you.
  • It feels as if only they understand the reality within which you live.
  • You no longer experience the in-love feeling with anyone else once you meet them. Say goodbye to that game…
  • It is not truly possible to let them go, even if you try to tell yourself otherwise.
  • There is nothing you would not do to remain with them.
  • If they pass away… you will probably not be far behind.
  • No amount of time will ever dull the pain or take away the need.
  • No amount of development will ever change the feeling.
  • After a lifetime of pain and torment you will still choose to do it all over just to stay with them.
  • You will always see them the same way you did on the first day you met… as if the aging process has no effect on your eyes.
  • You don’t believe they are the one… You know it. It is the thing which is most true for you in your mind. You know nothing else with such certainty as you know that.

 

I am in an endless personal struggle with my twin, or husband as I generally refer to him. He is strong willed and genuinely believes that everything he is doing is necessary. I don’t hate him though I’m pretty pissed with him right now. It feels as if he is wasting our lives. I would love to say that I have a choice in this… that I can somehow choose to find another… We are in this together, like it or not, that is the thing with us. We are tied to each other.

I’m starting to realise that the feeling of freewill is probably to blame for most of the pain. I constantly want to run away from the pain of all of this. I want to assert that I still have the right to let go and walk without him. I have not seen him in 14 years…have not spoken to him in 8 and yet I still cannot feel differently. I would if I could. It feels like a curse I am entrapped within. I no longer think I can get free of it…

So I’m going to try something I’ve never tried fully before. I’m going to give in… and stop struggling. I’m going to accept the situation even though I hate it. I’m going to sit still…

I love him. I always will and no matter what happens, I will always be his. There is nothing that can be done to change this.

On a purely romantic level, my life has been a sheer living hell for the last 17 years and it is going to remain so for the rest of my life unless he wakes up and chooses a different path.  All I can really do now is have faith in him…believe in our path and be patient until he is ready to come home.

ME x

Lets Get A Little Trippy Tonight

It always strikes me as strange, how often I look around me at all the different so-called ‘spiritual’ thoughts out there in the world and feel as if the entire planet is insane!

I know this must sound a little rich coming from me, given the stuff I come out with. However, for me, my reality and philosophy is really simple, logical and obvious. I guess the truth is always obvious once you can see it lol.

Early on in my path I was thought to think things through. It was something that was stressed over and over again, that the truth was always pretty obvious if you simply thought about it. Never let it be said that the universe does not have a sense of humour! Quite often, you can see the fun being had with us on a regular basis lol.

The truth is all around us but we don’t actually hear it, don’t think about it or assimilate it.

We are ONE…

What else can this mean but…there is only ONE of us… and that ONE is incarnated into every living being here.

I hear you saying ‘Oh yes, but just because we are all the same universal spirit, that does not mean that you are ME!’

Really…? What else does ONE mean???

This is just a daft example of what I mean.

In the bible, we are told that ‘GOD is everywhere and IN ALL THINGS!’

Somehow people hear this and think it means everywhere… except me…

Bloody hell. People can be so dense… so daft.

OK…so we are all ONE (yes, the same one) and if God is everywhere then that must mean that WE are it…wouldn’t you say?

See what I mean…really simple when you stop and think about it.

OK…so In the beginning was GOD (yes that ONE we mentioned before that we all are)…and before God ..was God… umm…what?

So logically speaking…God was Here since before the beginning…and the only way he could have been…is if he is always here…and is simply going around and around in circles…like the snake that eats its own tail.

God…is all of us (He’s keeping it secret from himself so he can experience these lives) and when he finally wakes himself up… he will repeat again from step A…ad infinitum.

Why??? I have no idea… you tell me as your guess is as good as mine. It’s fun I guess!

There… now we are all enlightened lol.

You don’t believe me yet do you. It’s a bit too much…a bit too big to believe.

Don’t worry, you will know it’s true soon enough.

Nite nite

ME x

Going Beyond Race, Gender & Sexual Equality

I had no intention of blogging again today but something worth noting sprang to mind as I was looking through the news today.

I generally don’t get involved in opinions of social matters. To be frank, I don’t actually care, not enough to get down in the dirt and raise my voice enough to be heard above the din that is social media and the endless sea of ego’s contained therein. I would like to, but it would be disingenuous. My views are just nuanced, which is why I don’t get involved. I get a little annoyed but only because I am a little beyond the current level of argument out there.

For example, the race issue. I don’t get involved one way or another and it isn’t because I don’t believe in race equality, it is for exactly that reason that I don’t get involved. I know you are probably shaking your head right now and saying ‘eh?’ so let me try to explain this a bit better.

I think that we are currently always favoring one race over another in our efforts to favor another race more than we presently do. By trying to be fairer to people who are black, or who are disabled or who are women, we discriminate against everyone who does not fall into those categories. It is a little like a pendulum, always swinging to one extreme or another when where it really needs to be is in the center. It simply never gets there.

While I agree there are large discrepancies in the way in which certain groups of people are currently treated by society, I still feel that for me, I simply see people as people. I don’t see white, black, Asian, Muslim, Christian, Hindu, Men, Women, old, young….

I just see people.

I don’t like political correctness and in my own view of the world, this process has gone a little crazy right now. We have lost our common sense to a large extent.

I yearn for a world where the issues of Black, Gender, Race, belief etc, are never ever mentioned… a world where we have moved into simply seeing ourselves as a single race, no matter which sex, race or gender could be used to define us.

What we are should not be important when it comes to describing ourselves. It should not count in terms of other people’s view of us relating to work or treatment generally.

All that matters in the grand scheme of things, is what we do. That should be the only estimation of our character and the only thing which truly effects others treatment of us in our daily lives.

I know many will be thinking…if only we lived in a perfect world we could hope for this but for now there is still much work to do. I would agree with that sentiment; however, I think we all have our own causes to peruse and there are so many in this world. I have chosen to work to prepare the world for what will come next after this lifetime as that is where my heart and my passion lies. We all need to follow our path and go where we are called. This is mine.

Have a good one guys 😊

Love,

Me x

What’s The Name Of The Game?

I’ve had a reoccurring conversation with a friend of mine for a number of years that I thought I’d share with you all today. I have to admit that my position has changed since we began discussing this one.

If you believe, as I did, in free will and hate the idea of cyclical time or the self-perpetuating time loop as I usually refer to it then you still believe it is possible to win in this world; to have all of your dreams come true and die at the end, feeling you have lived an amazing life.

I never stop trying to win this game. To me, I can always be the star of my own show and when I have down days I just fight harder, determined to win before I leave…

Then there is the other scenario which states that time is a circle which ever repeats in exactly the same way which equates to free will being somewhat of a myth or an illusion. In this scenario, your life is on a path all of its own and ever will be. There is no fixing it, changing it… if you win in your own eyes, it is simply due to destiny. If you lose then that too is down to destiny.

My friend was always certain that life repeated in the same way each time. In my own case I have my memories to refer to… before this life began I was told by my guardian…

“You will remember every cycle except the one you are incarnated into…”

To me this implies that the universe is capable of choosing a cycle which is more subtly apt for whatever place in our path we are…unless of course he is right and all of our lives are static, in which case we would always be in the same place each time and therefore our path would always be perfect for us at every step of the way…(head do isn’t it lol).

If I was to try and describe what I remember in terms of Gods own path… he has basically used every life as a puzzle and has gone round and round and round each life, infinitely. Each time he has tweaked the lives until they all led to the destination he wished them all to go.

In terms of my own life… he wanted Gillian to be a doorway… a life which would awaken and find its way back to reality while incarnate. I guess she’s a bit like the final level of a video game…  If and when a separate perceiving part of himself wishes to awaken (as I did after my last lifetime), they are incarnated as Gillian or another similar life that achieves the same thing.

I can remember many arguments between my lower self and my higher self where I am being told,

“I want to keep you with me, but if you don’t wake up this time you will die and I will never be you again.” At the time I always thought I was telling myself that I was being killed off, but that was never what he meant. He was saying that only one version of my existence would be the permanent one since to change any decision or experience would create an entirely different Gillian… I’m probably losing all of you now I’m sure lol.

It occurred to me today that the concept of winning or losing is rather mute now. How I judge myself to have won or lost is no longer the true yardstick.

In reality, winning is now a concept I must forget. In order to truly win, all I have to do is stop struggling and live my life as I live it, trusting fate. I can try my best but ultimately my own ideas of winning and losing are an inaccurate way of perceiving my life.

I am here to play a part and that part may not involve wealth, love or a family. It may not involve any of the things I wish for myself. It may involve pain, struggle, failure and death (well, yes obviously, at some point I hear you say lol).

Winning is actually a given now. I will win no matter what I do or don’t do. There’s no more need to worry about anything but the present moment as only that can be real for me now. Yesterday is as much an illusion as tomorrow was. Neither of them are in my hands…all I can do is enjoy the ride since the horse is not mine lol… It has its own destination and it is not going where I wish it to go no matter what…perhaps failure is the destination and that will be the purpose of this life?

Feel free to comment if you have even the slightest notion of anything I’ve just said lol.

Hope you’re all having a good week… Mine just got better…finally able to let the cat out. I’m sadly still waiting on Amazon’s reply; no word yet…

Catch you all soon,

Love,

ME x